today is 29.02.2008.
a day that comes once in 4 years.
and i can say,
today is one of the happiest days in my teenage life [:
LOLS. its not that i got attached or anything la.
its just that it has been a good day & i'm happy :))))
healthy lifestyle was rather boring as it was WALK.
wanted to run siohs =x
but i had fun with my friends [:
and yes. PHYSICS is so fun.
the magic trick so funnn [:
and more about internal reflection of light! ^__^
P.E was fcuking sianism lah.
screw it damned waste of time.
and then then.. English. WDHH 17.5/25 for summary.
which i didnt write finish.
if i completed it, WDHH can score at least 3 marks higher lah.
wtff siahhs. =x anything lah. idk&idc liaos le [:
and thnnnn visited laoREN. he's ok le ba [:
thn went play BBALL♥
took 912 with blur.
its was sfnaofpnHAPPYsknfpsdfsdfpnHAPPYsnfdfnafunHAPPYudifnsfHAPPY.
lols=x
yup. [: a special day with 3 special things and a special someone whom i love.
=x lols. sounds slightly corny. but I'M LOVING IT. yatta!
i'll waitt [:
kukukukukukkukukukukukukukukukukukukukukukus!!!!
amaths is mutha terror.
and the escaped t is a mutha damnit terror =x
yeah. i want DGRAYMAN tonight!!
ohmytiannnnn:))) cant waiitt.
lols. ciaos. [:

iilloveeeyouu[: ♥

finally i'm back to posting.
the past few days have been basketball and more basketball.
partially training for sports carnival.
DIE DIE WANT PLAY =xxx (LOL)
and yes. ren injured his arm yesterday.
a fracture if i'm not wrong.
rather freaked out lah =x
heard the bones erm "crack" sound.
and his arm was er out of shape ya.
freaked till dont dare play bball liaos le =xx
lol. but yeah. dong ye xiao never fails to inspire me and make me play on.
he inspire me to play bball and be fast.
damn it. i'm not giving up now,
freaking gonna get back my form and try to play for sc. =/
hopefully can get on the team,
if not i guess i will spend my time this year slacking and umpiring for netball.
dont intend to play any other sport except for basketball [:
i♥basketball.
and to blurblurKING: i will jiayou de [: wont give up just because of fear and setback [:
3/4 rocks yuppppp!! ^__^
and yes. i want dgrayman72.
so CIAOS!!!

28.02.2008 iloveeeyouuu [:

OHGODpearly.
wdh are you doing.
get up oh mann get upp..
stop losing yourself just because of that one guy that you loved.
you're losing yourself.
find yourself back and move on mann. =x
look around you,
there are so many people who love you around you,
so appreciate them while you can.
third person point of talking.
yup :x
get a clear mind before doing anything,
and dont be rash.
dont hurtt anyone toos.
ohmyyy. life is so kukukukukukus :x
eat more moyashi people,
gives you vitamin SEE and vitamin yAttA!
lols. mundane and emo anddd tiredd;;
GOD, tell me what i'm doing mann;;

iwannaspreadmywings,anddd flyy;;; =x

dont jealous of bball wor :x
ilu <3 =x
lols.
end of common tests [:
finally lah!! i looking like a bodoh PANDA. >__<"
well.
eventually i didnt fail a maths lah.
17/25!! ^__^ not good put pass can le [:
and social studies 12/17. :xxxx
yupyup.
bio throw alot marks lah.
shitshitshitshit. :xxx
can cry liaos le :x
hopefully the class tee prob can solve le.
thanks jielinn :DD
xin ku ni le. [:
supplier coming tml.
hope all goes well bah! ^^
mm. tml bball agn bahh [:
ahh jean dont psps me tml horrr [:
♥lovesss all & ciaoos!

ohmytians. iim falling~~♥

just know that.
i hate you.
fuck off man.
leave me alone.
asshole.

♥lloveees.

2 songs that touched my heart during yesterdays service.

All i once held dear

All I once held dear, built my life upon
All this world reveres, and wars to own
All I once thought gain I have counted loss
Spent and worthless now, compared to this

Knowing you, Jesus
Knowing you, there is no greater thing
You're my all, you're the best
You're my joy, my righteousness
And I love you, Lord

Now my heart's desire is to know you more
To be found in you and known as yours
To possess by faith what I could not earn
All-surpassing gift of righteousness

Oh, to know the power of your risen life
And to know You in Your sufferings
To become like you in your death, my Lord
So with you to live and never die

Power of your love

Lord I come to You

Let my heart be changed renewed
Flowing from the grace that I found
In You

Lord I've come to know
The weakness I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side

And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
By the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love as You live
In me

Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side

yupp. and the sermon's focus..
JOHN 6:

Jesus Feeds the Five Thousand

1Some time after this, Jesus crossed to the far shore of the Sea of Galilee (that is, the Sea of Tiberias), 2and a great crowd of people followed him because they saw the miraculous signs he had performed on the sick. 3Then Jesus went up on a mountainside and sat down with his disciples. 4The Jewish Passover Feast was near.

5When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him, he said to Philip, "Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?" 6He asked this only to test him, for he already had in mind what he was going to do.

7Philip answered him, "Eight months' wages^[a] would not buy enough bread for each one to have a bite!"

8Another of his disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter's brother, spoke up, 9"Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?"

10Jesus said, "Have the people sit down." There was plenty of grass in that place, and the men sat down, about five thousand of them. 11Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish.

12When they had all had enough to eat, he said to his disciples, "Gather the pieces that are left over. Let nothing be wasted." 13So they gathered them and filled twelve baskets with the pieces of the five barley loaves left over by those who had eaten.

14After the people saw the miraculous sign that Jesus did, they began to say, "Surely this is the Prophet who is to come into the world." 15Jesus, knowing that they intended to come and make him king by force, withdrew again to a mountain by himself.

Jesus Walks on the Water

16When evening came, his disciples went down to the lake, 17where they got into a boat and set off across the lake for Capernaum. By now it was dark, and Jesus had not yet joined them. 18A strong wind was blowing and the waters grew rough. 19When they had rowed three or three and a half miles,^[b] they saw Jesus approaching the boat, walking on the water; and they were terrified. 20But he said to them, "It is I; don't be afraid." 21Then they were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading.

22The next day the crowd that had stayed on the opposite shore of the lake realized that only one boat had been there, and that Jesus had not entered it with his disciples, but that they had gone away alone. 23Then some boats from Tiberias landed near the place where the people had eaten the bread after the Lord had given thanks. 24Once the crowd realized that neither Jesus nor his disciples were there, they got into the boats and went to Capernaum in search of Jesus.

Jesus the Bread of Life

25When they found him on the other side of the lake, they asked him, "Rabbi, when did you get here?"

26Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, you are looking for me, not because you saw miraculous signs but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. 27Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval."

28Then they asked him, "What must we do to do the works God requires?"

29Jesus answered, "The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent."

30So they asked him, "What miraculous sign then will you give that we may see it and believe you? What will you do? 31Our forefathers ate the manna in the desert; as it is written: 'He gave them bread from heaven to eat.'^[c]"

32Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, it is not Moses who has given you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. 33For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world."

34"Sir," they said, "from now on give us this bread."

35Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty. 36But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. 37All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. 38For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. 39And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all that he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. 40For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day."

41At this the Jews began to grumble about him because he said, "I am the bread that came down from heaven." 42They said, "Is this not Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, 'I came down from heaven'?"

43"Stop grumbling among yourselves," Jesus answered. 44"No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him, and I will raise him up at the last day. 45It is written in the Prophets: 'They will all be taught by God.'^[d] Everyone who listens to the Father and learns from him comes to me. 46No one has seen the Father except the one who is from God; only he has seen the Father. 47I tell you the truth, he who believes has everlasting life. 48I am the bread of life. 49Your forefathers ate the manna in the desert, yet they died. 50But here is the bread that comes down from heaven, which a man may eat and not die. 51I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

52Then the Jews began to argue sharply among themselves, "How can this man give us his flesh to eat?"

53Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. 54Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day. 55For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. 56Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in him. 57Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. 58This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your forefathers ate manna and died, but he who feeds on this bread will live forever." 59He said this while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum.

Many Disciples Desert Jesus

60On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"

61Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? 62What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! 63The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit^[e] and they are life. 64Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. 65He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him."

66From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.

67"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.

68Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."

70Then Jesus replied, "Have I not chosen you, the Twelve? Yet one of you is a devil!" 71(He meant Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, who, though one of the Twelve, was later to betray him.)

yup digest!
praise the LORD ♥
for HE is great and is the LORD of all [:
ciaos! ^^

shucks.
just finish drawing the class tee design today.
right after i woke up at..
11am =xxx
and bio is so so omfgwtfbbq.
so much shittt to study lo.
crappp i'm deadddd. :x
after tml.
gonna play bball.
celebrate end of exams [:
oh yaye.
chatting with blurblur.
so ciaos!

♥lovessss[:
say purple!

yup. first.. a video from and for blurblur the beansprout! :x
how to grow beansprouts.
MOYASHI.

disappeared for a few days,
=no mood to post.
past few days, rather mopeyyy.
the lights of my life.
the moyashi, basketball♥ & my friends <333
& i want to watch L!!!!!
must watchh!!
& leapyears (i think so) with oniichan!
kyoya watchh with meeee. :xxxx
lols.
today early morning.
blurblur wokee me up .__.
then went to bball!!
7 hours of bball=i get a nice nice painful sunburn. :xxxx
ouchh.
yes and to threefour♥.
sorry cant chiong out the design in time.
thn the supplier cant send before camp.
really really sorry people...
yup. thats all.
i go chiong design le.
tiredd;;;
ciaos;;

♥blurblursotong :xx

i hate love--by death♥

invisible spears pierced into her heart
tearing it into shredded pieces mercilessly
she cried out into the darkness, yet no one was there,
she crumpled onto the ground,
weak with shock and despair
millions of thoughts rushed through her mind,
yet she didnt have the slightest idea of what was going on,
darkness covered her like a huge blanket.
yet all she felt was cold and void
death took advantage
and reached out to her with its arms,
enticing her into its embrace
struggling with her choices,
the embrace of death, of course, seemed less painful.
she thought on and on,
woozy with the pressure,
and in the end,
she chose death.

love is painful.
and never worth her life,
nor anything else.

i finally know how he felt.
the pain hurts.
lorry korkor, it really really hurts.

&love sucks.
but all she can do is,
choke down her tears, and wish them happiness,
nothing will ever hurt her like this again.
not now. not ever.
for she is death♥.

i died yesterday.
just take it that i never existed.

pearly has been such a good girl lately.
study and revise and mugg like crapp everyday.
for the past two months have been rather slack in my studies.
and ohh yess.
from now, will work HARD le =x
Lols. dont usually like to revise after school,
cause usually really tireddd. and homework comes in abundance =x
but yup. as a result of common test, have to juggle everything in one day.
resulting in pearly sleep during english lesson =x
& also, observe other people's sleeping techniques! xD
sometimes really bo pian.
transition from sec 2 to 3 actually quite okay.
but the stress level is there.
and when see the msg level for physics=2. i like.. OMG lah.
well.
today's school was mundane.
except for the biology practical,
which i dont know why i was so clumsy lah. T.T
almost burn my face when turn on the bunsen burner. (the absent-minded pearly T.T)
then scalded hand with hot water from my water bath. ==''
Food tests are so funnnn [:
hmphhhh. Chemistry tomorrow;D
and ohhh shitttt. double english.
on the contrary.. SLEEP TIME. (if only mdm emilia wasnt in front of me and such a bore =x )
double periods of everything except physics.
what an "interesting" day.
and last match for north zone against AI tomorrow as well.
jy girls [:
somehow.
been rather moody and temperamental and crazy and thoughts-filled lately.
just so much weighing on my mind.
i just wanna drop everything and run..

the escape from reality..

hmm.
looks like i didnt have the time to post yesterday. O.O
yup collected the xray and got amused by the bones in the picture [:
then went to church [:
helped out with valentines day stuff. [:
fun but quite tired lah.
saded that cant stay to serve.
but yup. the food and all were really good! ^^
hope those who went enjoyeed the food and the concert [:
some songs played by the band were: 5:19,especially for you,built to last,way back into love, i wanna hold your hand,kiss me, whatever it takes, you are everything.
all very nice ♥
the theme for this year is "No Sugar Added" [:
nice siahs.
hmm. then bball.
then went home.
dad's frens came over.
uncle jimmy they all lo.
dinner-ed.
then counterstriked.
then went to 7-11 for ice creams [:
then played audition. [:
guess shawn and raun were entertained =]
they left around 1230am lo,
pack stuff, log off then talk on phone then sleep le.
wahkaos. damn tired la.
then today whole day have to chiong maths file le.
and common test revision.
kuku siahs.
so i go study.
but before i go,
post 5:19 lyrics first [:
enjoy [:

5:19
I'd be lying through my teeth if I told you
That I'm ok
July came, I thought I had it all together
Until you said
"I need some space"
Truth be told
It's so hard to wait

One eye on the clock
And one on the phone
It's 5:19....
I'm feeling alone
If I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go.

We both know that I could think myself dizzy
Right now I'm spinning around
You said, "baby, don't worry"
But I just miss you right now
I said, I miss you right now

One eye on the clock
And one on the phone
It's 5:19....
I'm feeling alone
If I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go.


Baby, take all the time you need
I just want you to know
I'll be here, waiting

With one eye on the clock
And one on the phone
It's 5:19....
I'm feeling alone
If I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go.
(x2)

ooooo....
Ain't letting go

yup. [: ciaos!

17.02.2008--271 days.
so many weird things happening lately.
is GOD testing my faith in love,
or is HE just telling me to give up..?
i guess i should spend more time with HIM,
have been drifting away lately.
never consistent.
Oh LORD, i'm sorry..

gong to yishun poly to collect x rays now.
and church to help mingjie shushu.
so post later. ciaos.

happy valentines day to all [:
well this year's valentines day really got mood.
and had a great time with my friends [:
thanks to Shimin for the ferrero roche, Teck chuan for cookies and dhivyen for the tolberone.
gave out two gifts today.
a rose for my darlingg xiaohuan and something for someone.
LOL. ok. blushed like crap and run le :X
sherilyn say should have taken video.
so that next time can have improvement. .__.
LOL. red like the red aluminium tolberone wrapper ==''
and to ken: ur cookies quite saafe. edibleeee :X
hurh. social studies write until arm want break le.
then chinese. compo write until like crap. thn the jia zhi guan i can oni rmb the jiao yu wen ti.
the qing shao nian wen ti i cant rmb.
zzz. still got lotsa work to do.
another chinese paper tomorrow.
grrr. and match with msl.
jiayou girls [:
mm. gotta go.
ciaos.

14.02.2008--274 days.
iloveyou. happy valentines day <3
__________________________________________________________
Back at 6.40pm

Hmm. a bumper post!!! [: (2-in-1-special)
Just came back from library.
walked home with chika yup.
and yeah. maybe making an ouran t-shirt.
oh tamaki rocks. I'm so sooo dense :X LOLS.
Rubber ducky reply my sms leh. T.T
bakakakka.
still feeling the after effects of this morning.
ahhh. went over high today.
ahh my tiansss. LOLs. so kukus.
hmm. go do work le. ciaos!!!

left at 6.43pm

LOLs.
i didnt complete my summary. shucks.
yup. school was blah.
lost the match against sjc.
sad. 19-38. but well done riverside netball :D
yeah. gotta mug for social studies le.
valentine day tmr.
maii!! :D
guess will buy chocos.
sweet tooth is calling. LOLS.
yup. study. ciaos.


13.02.2008-275days <3>
wish that i could lie that i didn't love you.
but i cant..

yawn.
slept yesterday after logging off.
then woke up for dinner and socialising with homework and textbooks.
after that fall asleep again.
just so tiredd;;
school was ok.
training was slack, as good as a waste of time,
better off chiong homework and studying yahh =X
common test is like TMR.
screwed up. going to mug like crap le.
and tml got match with SJC. T___T
the adventure camp briefing so fun siohs.
looking forward to camppp :D
except for abseiling, the rest of the activities are okay.
dammit. i hate heights. T.T
still have a summary to chiong.
minus so many words le now still 153.
damnedddd. so saded lah.
trying hard to get rid of 3 words. zzzz.
and just replied ade mama's email.
miss her so yupps.
feeling blankk now;;
so ciaos.

12.02.2008-276days <3
ihavenoideawhatandhowtofeelrightnow.
&i so hate this mann.

back.
really really really really tired today. T.T
assembly is ****ing boring lurhh. T.T
want sleep le.
then physics and chemistry.
think i flunkedd the physics speed test :X
wavesaresoWAVEY. X.X
then recess le jiu leave class for match le.
score was 17-24.
riverside wins :D
hengyin was so prooooo.
jinger also [:
and everyone [:
well done rs netball xD
yeah. =/
look at the homework jiu sian diao liaos le.
wann sleep le.
heeee. [:
byeeebyyeee!

11.02.2008-277days <3
never want to lose sight of you.
ii♥you.

well well.
the party is over :X
chika just left yup xD
hmmms.
overall okay lahh.
my apologies that my house have little entertainment amenities.
yah. just hope you all had a good time gambling yup.
and thanks to those who came [:
most prob next year will be back to sherilyn house..?
heee [:
mahjong and blackjack.
still lose money siahs :X
but nvm lah. have fun can le bahhhs :D
umm. its an end to an uberrr long holiday yahh.
tomorrow back to school le.
HAIZ. feeling the monday morning blues.
tired. also cause woke up early to cook for the party. T.T
haven't finished humanities either.
but nvm bah. tml thn do. :X
and common tests are coming up.
like ohmytian!! T.T
imagine flunking a few subjects..?
grrrr. feeling depressed.
physics waves i'm in deep shit larhhhh!
and and and. ohmytian. so much to list.
got to study.
& oh yah. remind me to buy chocs and collect dvd from mama's pigeon hole :X
forgetful pearly :X
and its 10 feb (already?!?!). like ohmytianohmytianohmytian.
and ohmytian. i'm moooooooDY.
*groan* guess i'm gonna zhao liao.
slackk [:
so ciaos!

10.02.2008-278days <3
( ̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]̲̅:̲̅ ) plaster for my heart :X *pain*

I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you

I had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid

Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting

Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you

love this song..♥

five loaves and two fishes-corinne may

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look

Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling smal
land I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in youI trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

yes Father.. take my all, and use it, in Your name. ♥

blank;;

just blank.
dont want to be hurt any further.
i'm tired.
really really really tired.
my emotions are worn out totally.
and i cant tell anyone how i really feel.
and anyway. who actually cares. and who actually does.
i dont. & i dont think you do either.
i dont like things this way,
neither do i want things to be this way.
i wished many a times,
there were countless things i didnt do.
maybe. things would have been better.
and that things were at the status quo.
many things are just plain lies.
ya. if this were all a dream,
and i could just wake up from this nightmare,
how good it would be,
but after pinching myself,
and realising its cold hard reality
its just ironic.
well. guess enough of emoing.
and add a lighter ♪ note ♫ is my post,
though feelings are very heavy..?

yup.
last night went pine grove again.
raun's house.
and yup.
dinner-ed.
then went down to meet luke.
bballed and soccer-ed.
and yup. pine grove court finally got net le.
therefore,accuracy↑↑↑=yaye.
thn sis got a blister,
so went back to R's hse.
and yup. THANKS FOR HELPING ME BURN THE DVDS.
thn we took pictures of raun for contact pictures.
rather cute. [:
then played football game on ps2.
very amusing indeed.
yea. thn went home & called ken.
before i took a nice trip to lalaland.
did 2 homework le.
still got many many to go.
haiz. so ciaos. =/

Reminder to people.
TMR. 10 FEB. SUNDAY.
ONE-pm.
my house.
contact me at 94368901/63657867if you need me to meet you at marsiling mrt station.
my address: blk 158 woodlands st 13 #12-705 S(730158)


09.02.2008-279 days <3
define:happy
define:iloveyou
define:ihateyou
define:justfuckoff
define:dontleaveme
define.ME.

if you're sad: watch Lucky Star. their randomness will make you laugh.
if you want a laugh with some hentai: read Mahou Sensei Negima (magister negi magi)
if you want some fighting: watch D. Grayman.
if want a scare: watch ghost car.
if you want another laugh: watch human tetris on youtube.
if you want a rest: Go SLEEP.
yet sometimes,some problems are not as easy to solve as these.
why is it like this..?!?!
dont know. dont care anymore.
ciaos.

ADD ON:
To the PEOPLE :DDDDDD
DETAILS FOR CNY PARTY!!
10 February 2008, Sunday
1pm.
My house [:
See you there [:


08.02.2008--280 days.
iloveyou.

feeling weird.
woke up with a heavy head,
felt sick,
and my ankle was aching like crap.
its just weird.
i remember what i said last night,
i remember what she said last night,
i felt,really bad.
"heartbreaker".
oh yes.
a heartbreaker that is heartbroken.
thats all.
not only you hurt,
i do too.
smile's a lie..?
i dont know.
i really wonder why i did so many retard-ed things last year.
i dont remember why and how and what happened.
nothing remains in my memory.
it just feels plain awful.
sometimes,
just feel that my existance is pointless.
why am i on earth..?
what am i doing with my life..?
what is going to happen in this day and the next..?
questions. that cant be answered.
there's something i think i should give up on.
something i should let go.
something that isn't mine that i'm trying to hold on to.
maybe it doesn't even exist.
i'm tired.
i'm tired of crying.
really tired....

changed blogskin liao le [:
mm. those havent reply de.
yao lai jiu lai lo [:
so see you ppl.
shud be online at 12am yup.
ciaos! ^^

right.
zomg lahhs.
i just realised this skin is a bloody wreck on ie7.
screw. guess i'll use the skin i made ytd bahhhhs [:
heeeee[:
dad got a mercedes. LOL. like so cool [:
went ah gong hse.
steamboat and ngor hiang,
but no ah gong curry,
saded. ;(
hmm. took family pics [:
actually is quan jia fu xD
cuz first time the WHOLE family is there.
heee. and uncle aaron is so cuteeee&shuaii.
hope yi zhang takes up the reality show he was offered :D
goo yi zhang!!!
thn went gu ma hse [:
yayeee~
went home and bought i zhou kan from the indian mama shop [:
heeee. happy.
now at yf de hse.so ciaos!

<333s

Boo;;
fell asleep when i snoozed my com=X
so poof i woke up this morning lo.. =X
mm ya. lotsa visiting to do today.
&dad rented a car [:
yayes [:
and to those who havent reply my msg abt the pty on sunday..
i'll sent that message agn yup, and PLS REPLY IF YOU ARE COMING OR NOT.
need to knw who's coming and who's not coming,
so pls reply ASAP!!
hm. and wishing all,
A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR [:
Lols. back to bed =X
so ciaos!

07.02.2008--281 days <3s
ilove&missyou♥

wheee (:
i made my first blogskin liaos le.
took me about 4 hours to make it,
met with countless problems,
but taaadaaa! i made it [:
you can view it at http://exothermicx.blogspot.com.
LOL. may post it on blogskins if i ever have the time yup.
search: ♥Exothermic-X
hahahaz. [:

Today was a busy day.
cny celebrations in the morning..
erm. quite sianz. sadly.
but 3/4 won 2ND FOR THE CNY DECO.
i♥3/4 :D
lols.
then went back fcps with fengyu,feng ting, mx, kc & glor [:
thn went kfc.
then took 912e to cwp.
on the bus met miss kek, mdm fitri and mdm samemmah.
they told me about the goldfish called pearl in the fcps staff room and how she died =X
hmm. thn met up with cgers at swensens [:
mac and cheese! ate half and gave the rest to beef.
he really joker siah.
the whole meal was damned funny.
thn the waitress even called him sayang!
LOLS. :]
thn arcaded =/
exchanged a rubric cube to share with keef.
lols. rubric cube addict;;
and thn went home.
tuan yuan fan= STEAMBOAT.
yummmed.
thn continued making my blogskin lo.
its up on blogskins le.
#1 God loves you ; ♥Exothermic-X
LOLs.
mm. blueeeee :X
not early le.
go rest liaos.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL [:
ciaos!

06.02.2008--282 days. ♥
miss you;;

LOL.
okay. that is a simply retard-ed title, but anything! hahahs.
today was an okay day in school.
teachers=i "love" them so much=give us such BIG angpows of homework. .__.
yup and to all Ex-FUCHUNIANS. TOMORROW GO BACK FCPS HOR [:
ESP: to 2005 graduate de 6E PEOPLE!!! [:
SEE YOU THERE [:
hm.
went cwp with kirara and shimin,
buy charmaine's prez!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to KYOYA-SAMA! [:
and ate the or fillet meal at kfc. LOLs.
shopped! bought a couple tamagotchi with shimin [:
purple~
the couple pouch thingy at more than words uber cute lahh [: ♥
and yup. people!! PLS REPLY MY MESSAGE!!!!!! needa confirm who coming or not de :D
blahhhs.
i want to buy a mushroom;
a cute brown mushroom from more than words.
ilovemushrooms♥
oh yeah.
i failed another mo xie=last week's de.
ling mei say: "i have 3 A***"
i say: "i have 3 Fs"
today de most likely get a A***?
if got thn i post the picture [:
a happy pearly that got a-star-star-star! (for chinese. indeed an achievement for me. =X )
wakakakas.
REMINDER FOR PEARLY: BUY CHOCOLATES BEFORE 14 FEB FOR FRIENDS!
lol. still need to rewrap a gift.
hohoho [:
and i rmb!
i can see my darlinggg SHI TING♥ tmr!!
ohmyyyyloveeeee[:
i miss her teddy bear hugs lols.
all grow up liao le.
*sniff sniff*
miss the primary one times.
and oh! my LOUDSPEAKER TRICIA CHIA!!! ♥
Yvonne~~ erm. and many more of my ex-1G darlingggs [:
Lols.
and mum's buying MUNCHY donuts.
wheeee~~
oh ya. .__.
need to collect xray toos.
screw. >__< spoiler siahhh!!!
& also cg outing!]
wheeee [:
busy day-
and dinner now,
so ciaos!

05.02.2008--283 days.
我爱你 ♥

BOLD. ITALICS. [:

to ken: thanks for helping me make the blogskin [:
finally that cross picture can use le (:
screaming over amaths currently.
stress until want mad le.
ROAR .___.
hmm. so ciaos!

hellos! [:
hm.
church yesterday.
woke up for 9am service, surprisingly [:
and after that basketball-ed with luke, cedric and kendrick.
lols. thn went cwp for lunch=KFC.
thn arcade-ed. *guilty*
3 games of maximum tune 3 and two games of daytona= $6 sth..?
lols. think i need go make another tapz de vip next time ba.
anw nowadays also never play much le. waste $$$ nia.
<3 my subaru impreza. LOLs.
then open sunday :D
done by..
Ark Royal..?
Floorball, Touch Rugby, Captains ball and Ultimate frisbee. :]
fun!!
managed a touchdown=try for touch rugby [:
though it came with a carpet burn.. (accident prone pearly [APP] )
LOL.
new statement..? : ilovetouchrugby.
haha. =]
received an sms from valeryGOOSE yesterday.
its like. DANCE!~
we've been reinvited to dance.~
wheeeee [:
oh my tianz.
missed dancing really reaally badly yupz.
hopefully all goes well and can dance agn..? [:
hehs [: happy~
today lesson=i want to sleep.
the weather is so good for sleeping lurhhh.
and got mount everest high pile of hmwk.
thn after sch lunched with shimin and kirara before going home [:
yah. so slack a bit before i go do homework le.
so ciaos! ><


04.02.2008--284 days <33s
不能再错过您,我爱你 ♥
私は愛する♥
♂♀ ♥

noooo.
watch d.grayman till episode 69 le.
next thursday quickly come.
i want watch episode 70 online.. =X
hmm.
maybe i go watch monster le.
or bleach.
hahas.
so ciaos! [=

LOLS.
TO TAVIN: the person i trying to outrun is not you lah .___. someone else!!! LOL :D
emal. .___. if i try outrun him, can go chop off leg liao le :D
and anw. to ken: thanks for pei wor go doctor yesterday :D

hmmm. today go yishun polyclinic.
around three hours of waiting in total.
the doctor very shuang.
twist my ankle here and there.
want cry liao. so pain!!! .___.
thn after that X-ray!
comes with radiation..? =X
hmm result says: i have no fractures or bone misalignments,
perfecto.
just that.. i have a loose and weak ligament.
shit.
and mum says i'm flat footed and that all my ligaments are loose.
.___. screwwwwwww. >.<
like achmed says: I NEED SOME LIGAMENTS!!!! :D
haiz. refer to the shuai and cute doctor in NUH lor. (as mum says)
grrrr.
i'm not gonna give up though.
determined to be okay!! :D
and have to collect my xray picture on monday!
so fun. can see my bones! :D LOLS.
tmr open sunday!
mum say cant run.
grrrr.
anything LOL.
run a bit bit!! :D
hm. i want to run.
feel like a pig sitting at home with 2 week exemption from physical activities. .___.
lols. feeling a bit euphoric now.
thinking.. wondering.. pondering..
heeee :]
just happy that finally run faster than that person, cuz that time chase him for dunno how long because of dunno what matter but cannot catch him T.T
LOL.
ligaments~~
i go slackk le.
so ciaos!!!!

02.02.2008--286 days. <3s
run away from reality
& all the x-ray shows are the fragments of my broken heart.. =(

dont leave me alone...

cedtic, the reason i wanted to run yesterday was to seek improvement.
and the reason i sprinted after you was to reach my goal,
of winning you for once. -and finally i did it. with a price to pay.-

ouch.
painful day. ._.
run endurance run for HL.
stamina not worn out,
but my ankle,
fucking pain.
run till near 888 there actually want give up and walk de,
cuz the pain so intense.
but continue to run.
thn near 883 le
suddenly ced appear,
chua tios.
that time pain until want die le.
at traffic light chiong le.
sprint until uberrrr happy!!
finally!! pwned!!!!! my dream for the past two years come through le,
finally can run faster than him.
hohohos.
but. got price to pay de.
crycry~~
my ankle~~ pain like omfgwtfbbq!!!!!
thanks to tavin who call the st john teacher.
THANK YOU. [:
and also mai,hidaya and haiza who pei wor [:
mm. at least i know my stamina back le, with improvement! :D
guess will take a rest from running for the next two weeks and rest and recover liao le.
just hope i didnt cause any severe damage to my ankle today.
praying hard . [:
tonight go see doctor le. [:
see i become good girl le.
but really scared.
dont wanna be banned from running or sports.
cuz i will die lah.
cant live without sports. :D
lols.
d grayman!!
i go watch le.
ahh. lots of homework. *crushed!!*
lols.
ciaos!

01.02.2008-287 days. <3s
Loving you wasn't an
Ordinary thing i did, and it felt like the extraordinary-est thing i did, and i feel
Very happy. and i pray that you will stay
Extra happy & know you are lovedddd :D

love you. [:
thankyou.