good morning. its nine-oh-three in the morning.
-.- grrr. i want to sleep ohkay :X
but the science camp group guys are coming over at 10am.
banannaannananananana. -.- i'm tired.
super tired after ytd sports camp. -.-
morning was training. regular ballwork crap and thn the STUPID square again.
this time even worse than yesterday. kaos. ._.
19 minutes also cannot finish. thn get 30 push ups. -.-
sian diao can ._. thn courtwork like finally can
WING DEFENCE - WD (as usual) :D
played this small purple ball (: vv cute :D
that ball = catch difficult, defend easy -.-
i want the bigbig netball please
after training had this super boring talk by miss milhan. *dozes off*
thn lunch was goodgood nasi lemak :D
thn a talk by MR. C KUNALAN :DD
at first quite boring ._. after that interesting :DDDDD
he is inspiration maan :D
then had farewell party.
8 boxes of SARPINO's pizza. gosh, its nice :X
thn comes the BANANA CAKE.
bet lai bet qu, yihui have to eat a lot of cake :X
thn fell cause tripped over a junior -.-
abrasions here there everywhere -.- pain cans.
LOLS. but lucky, never sprain, if sprain left, i idle, if sprain right, I KILL YOU =x
i know sound evil, but right ankle uber weak alr, if sprain = cannot walk.
LOLS. lmaos :D snail haven't reply my msg :( think he sleeping bah ._.
and maybe under the sea no reception, or spongebob's alarm faulty alr :X

!Rants
#1 cannot like hiiimmm :X
#2 must not fall for himmmmmm!!
#3 angryangryangryangry!!!!
#4 siansiansiansiansian
#5 go away! i hate you maaans!

LOLs. that was random,
but honestly, i'm rather turned off by certain things.
but simple as that. i'm still gg to leave you.
hmm yeah. ihateyou. HAPPY? :D
when the time comes, you'll eventually know who you are.
escape from reality, and it'll come out from behind and bite you. :D

a song that suits my emotions.

Whatever It Takes-lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
What kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know that what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

thanks to loo jing for sending me the song on the way to ecp :D
yeah. nothing much to post alr.
byebye.

a meme i got from kyoya-sama. (:

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Not long ago :X

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes :D

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Umm. Must be yummy :X

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
No. *unless you count boon yain*

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Maybe?

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Sometimes.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
YES :DD i'm in one piece :D

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
No. I'm afraid of heights.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Corn flakes :DDD

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Depends. :X

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate mint. (:

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Dresscode and look. :X

15. RED OR PINK?
Neither :X

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Big thighs :X

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Someone? Everyone?

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
HAH? Send this back to me for what? it's like on my blog :D

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Black FBTS. I don't wear shoes at home.

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Chicken + Rice.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
My little sister singing :D

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Orange.

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Sea. :D

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Marcus (:

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
I got it from kyoya-sama's blog. of course i like kyoya sama! :D

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
netball/basketball.

27. HAIR COLOR?
brown + black

28. EYE COLOR?
Dark brown.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yes.

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Western, Italian, Japanese, Korean, Chinese, Indian, Malay.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings :D i hide under a pillow for scary movie. :D

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Ah Long Pte Ltd

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
White.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Both :D

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hug :X

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Chocolate Fondue with lots of marshmallow. :D

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Black Pig :X

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
idk.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Empress Wu.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I don't have a mousepad.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
I didn't watch TV last night. :D

42. FAVORITE SOUND?
Sea rushing up the seabed. :D

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
what?! :D

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Hongkong.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I don't think so :D

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Singapore :D

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Black pig. kachiao him xP

48. IF YOU COULD CHANGE YOUR JOB/CAREER RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE?
Student :X HOW TO CHANGE?! be cleaner ahhh .__.

49. WHAT'S THE WORST TROUBLE YOU GOT INTO WHEN YOU WERE A TEENAGER?
i hope nothing :X

50. ARE YOUR PARENTS DIVORCED?
No.

51. DO YOU WISH THEY WERE STILL TOGETHER?
N/A.

52. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF?
something :D

done :D
gg sleep alr =x
night.

sunset at the sea :D


reddish clouds :D


sea view with puffy clouds :D





bbq :D *yumms*


setting sky :D wish i could share this sight with that special boy :x




baby looney tunes!!! x33








JJ 骗 us that is pit 38. -.- we bbq-ed at 37!


um. sky taken from a bus :D


yahyah. they left the bbq stuffs on the FAB shelf and went to take other stuff xD








a video of the baby looney tunes :D
i'm immature and i' m loving it :D LOL.

tag replies
-ken: roll roll roll your pig xD
-edward: um. yeah. frames. uber funny lah :D next is miss fung i think -.-
-tavin: idk. she become teach part time, thn i heard she gg retire aft that.
-weiliang: YES. i'm evill xPP
-dolly: no prob no prob :D tke care and see u soon :D

YES. i went to east coast ytd. (:
morning went to humanities lesson, i cab-bed down to school cause i was late.
_l_ and thn i realised, late for holiday lesson nvm de -.-
nahnahnah. -.- wasted 4 bucks on a cab ride. :X
humanities as okay :D
thn went home before chionging to woodlands to meet jean and friends :D
met many many ex fuchunians :D
Dolly,Lionel, Yongkun, Yi yong, Gary, Jessica, Jasmine :D
uberuber cools cans. vv long nvr see them alr.
thinking abt it. rlly miss old fuchun site maans. memories :X
thn the other ppl have loo jing + junhao,ken, jj, jaurence (idk hw to spell) and some 没有男人气味的男生 :X
took 966 to Marine Parade / Parkway Parade (i forgot which).
thn it was raining cows and chickens. :X
aww. went to GIANT for shopping :D
thn met loo jing's online friend.
they funny LOLS :D
thn walkwalkwalk to east coast park. *rain stopped alr*
walkwalkwalkwalk -.-
gg lame alr :X LOLs.
thn went bbq pit 38.
jj came, say pit 37.
EEEE. JJ liarrrrr!! -.-
thn set up fire for bbq.
thn makan!!!!
me and jeanette go 跳海 !!!
:D the moment i went into the seawater, i felt uber great.
i wanted all my troubles to be washed away by the sea,
taken farfar away :X
thn eateateat somemore.
aft tt abt 8pm,
tke bus to yck.
uber long trip. :X
kukunathans -.-
thn sent dolly home. & thn ken pei-ed me go home :D
thanks onichan black pig xPP
bathed, talk on phone until i went to lalaland =X

today sports camp,
bwg, -.- not too bad,
but i was too sleep from the previous day =x
and sunday gg sentosa with dimpsalms (:
tmr sports camp agn.
gotta do the senior's farewell cards and write the _l_ netball journal.
and viwawa with cutebao :D

and to whoever,
i can't keep up with the act of nonchalance,
i can't continue lying that i'm not affected,
i've been wanting to rant this out for ages,
i'm a human being with a heart and feelings,
can you stop torturing me with your words and acts?!
i think it is for the best, if 我们疏远对方。
nothing can heal this pain anymore,
it's killing me alr. don't think you'll ever feel that i'm gone,
cause i'll just make you feel that you wished you never knew me.
-deni♥ killed herself you.

ciaos.

EAST COAST PARK WITH JEANJEAN TMR :D
LOVE YOU JEANS (: byebyebyebyebye! GOOD NIGHT xD

oh banananananananananannanana :D
right -.- that was coldcoldcold.
mama's home. mama's home. mama's home :D
though i haven't seen her yet, but yesyesyes i♥you mama!
tried calling her but she nvr pick up :( nvmnvm..

today's lessons were pretty good.
first biology.
copycopy prac notes and bio wb ans.
thn know that MRS TEE'S LAST DAY. :(((
*sobsobsobsobsob*
though her lessons are rather dry, and makes ppl wanna sleep,
she still the bestest bestest bio teacher.
after 2 years of her science + bio teaching,
really gonna miss her loads. :(((
and my results were good under her,
don't have her, i won't be in 3/4 alr. :X
want say a bigbig THANK YOU to darling Mrs Tee.
maaan, when she around, say she make ppl sleep,
now she going, vv sad caans :(
thn the new tcher, haiyoh, heard not good larh.
why 3/4 so suay de. kena all the lanlan tchers, esp those trainees. _l_
thn my results like kanasai also .__. cannot understand physics the whole of last term.
bananas. MR GOH 万岁 caans. he before exam teach, thn i manage to scrape a A2.
haiz. really hope next term will be better. :( Mrs Tee, will miss you de. :X
think until want cry alr :'(

thn humanities.
quite okay la. tmr got agn. -.-
thn went out with lingz,nat and jialing.
eat macs.
thn went with sq and rhs go bball.
officially in love with PEACH ICE BLEND.
it is loveee :D LoLS.
thn cwp with black pig.
thn go my house.
wanted to play xdo, but my com ah..
@#$% lag la. -.- so cannot lo :(
thn black pig rolled home =x and i watched 我的野蛮奶奶(:

and YESYESYESYESYES :D
I FINALLY TALKED TO MAMA! :D
OHH YESSS. :D I'll be there this sunday,
with certificate plus bigbig chop :D
gonna hug you oh so tightly :D
maaans. i'm on cloud-nine right now.

yeah well. after all. today was a tuesday.
feeling: 这幅笑嘻嘻的面具真好戴，敷衍了好多人喔。。
那真实的笑容我无法现出，只能路出-.-的眼神。
外表上笑嘻嘻的。但心里流的是血泪。
LOLS. chinese freak agn :X
the thought of Os are freaking me out :X
emo also in chinese. i rlly chichi keesiao alr =/

i don't keep cutebao waiting alr :X
i go viwawa with him.
byebye(:

Labels: ademama is back, Mrs tee last day

sky. (: chaos pointed out the rainbow-ish part of the sky (:
nice.



closer view of the rainbow-ish. :D


omg. wl's gna kill me for posting this xD
took it while we were math-ing in my hse ytd(:


umm dinner :D my dad's yummy hokkien noodles. :D


Portuguese egg tart from Robin's. City Square Msia.
"its good!"


Otah bread from Seasons (i think so) ,City Square msia.


torty hug bolster! my two loves :D


Mum's pizza bread. uber cheesy :X


Pizza bread agn XP


Sun set? Rather hazy though.


sky (:


sun setting :D


Mac Breakfast :D


McGriddles Sausage


McGriddles sausage and egg.


Mcgriddle sausage and egg (: Yummmms


rainbow-yyy xD

A quiz from Tavin's blog. :D

1. What was the connection between you and the last person that called you?
- My laogong jeanjean :D

2. Do you ever turn y our cellphone off?
-Sometimes, usually when it turns sotsot. :X

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
- That's 33 minutes away. -.- i should be blogging/blog hopping/viwawa.

4.When did you last cry?
- A few days ago.

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
- Butter.

6. What do you want in your life right now?
- Get closer to God, do well in studies, stop running away from reality.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
- Neither. i walk in the rain.

8. Whats the favourite thing to have on your bed?
- bolster.

9. What bottoms are you wearing?
- shorts.

10. whats the nicest text in your inbox says?
- its a uber long message, but main idea is, you are my sunshine, i'll stand by you always, i love you forever. (summarised) [that was 2 mths ago, but it was the sweetest msg any bf/guy could send to me]

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
- hopefully not.

12. Are you wearing anything that you borrowed from someone?
- no.

13. What was the last movie you went to see?
- At sq hse = Ah Long Pte Ltd (:

14. What are you proud of?
- Um. I scored an A1 for Emaths for Mye overall. :X

15. What does the oldest txt msg in your inbox says?
- "blurblur king likes sotong queen (: " (dated 24/o2/08. thats uber long time ago -.-)

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
- Perfect - simple plan

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
- baichi, pearl, bubbletea, white pig, pear..etc..

18. What does the last received text msg say? who was it from?
- "Leon me and my mum my mum wan play la she shou yang" Shao Quan.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
- 11+/12

20. Are you currently happy?
- Not really.

21. Who gives you the best advice?
- Jeanjean.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
- No.

23. Who did you talk on the phone with last night?
- Black Pig :D

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
- Yeah. That @#$% problem. i hate b&b maans. -.-

25. What/who was the last thing that made you laugh?
- Shao quan and weiliang?

26. Do you wear toe socks?
- No.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
- Withheld :X

28. Have you ever have your heartbroken..
- Yes.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
- Something?

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
- Yeah. Perhaps.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
- No.

32. What is the colour of your room?
- super light blue :D

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
- Lols. I dont think so.

34. Do you believe in the saying " talk is cheap? "
- HaaaH? idk. :X

35. Who was the last person to lay on your bed?
- Me, Myself and I.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
- um. that boy?

37. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kiss?
- No.

38. Do you have a life?
- Perhaps yes.

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt?
- No.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
- i will never be perfect in his eyes? IDK lol!

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
- that boy.

42. Last time you smiled?
- maybe yesterday?

43. Have you changed this year?
- i don't know? Played more basketball?

44. What are you listening to right now?
- My sister sleep talking xD (pure entertainment)

45. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
- Teck Chuan on Msn, Shao Quan on SmS.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or close?
- Open. i run with my eyes closed :X (sometimes)

47. Is there a quote you live by?
- 世上无难事，只怕有心人. LOL that was random!

48. Do you want someone you cant have?
- Maybe. Him?

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
- Yes.

50. Whats the worst idea you have had this week?
- Play with penknife.

51. What do you think is the most attractive abt the opposite sex?
- Something? (silence)

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
- Not really.

53. What song describe your love life?
- Perfect-Simple plan.

54. Does the person you like know you like them?
- I don't know.

55. Who always makes you laugh?
- My Bff clique and the 2 other musketeers. =X

56. Do you speak any other languages other than english?
- Chinese, Malay, Cantonese, uber broken hokkien :X

57. Are you a blonde?
- No.

58. Whats your middle name?
- Melody

59. What are you doing tmr?
- Bio supp, humanities supp, basketball?

60. Who is your best friend?
- Best Friends. (i got a few) but put bigbig JEANETTE WONG :D
& of course darling and girlfriend and kyoya-sama. :D
and so on and so forth.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
- Torty? LOL.

62. Where have you been today?
- My room.

63. What games do you play often?
- Viwawa- wahjong, big 2.5, sushido, stwack , match it

64. Who are you missing right now?
- Someone.

65. If you have to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
- Both :X

66. What are you doing right now?
- this quiz and chatting on msn.

67. Which primary sch are you from?
- Fuchun Primary School

68. Name three colours that you like.
- Black, white, brown.

69. What emotion do you like to show?
- :DDDD idk.

70. What is life to you?
- Breathe :X

71. If you have something troubling you, what would you do?
- Think, confide in a uber close friend, pray.

72. Who did you chat with in msn today?
- Teck Chuan, Abu, Aaron, Shimin.

73. Which model of phone do you use?
- Sony Ericsson W910i

74. Which month are you born in?
- September.

75. How are you feeling right now?
- Sleepy.

76. What is the time now?
- 10.09am

77. What's your favourite cartoon?
- Tom and jerry

78. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
- i'm considering brown.

79. Do you have contact lens?
- Yes.

80. [[ Personal ]]What do you want to do during the holidays?
- East Coast, Genting, ice skating, basketball, science camp, dye hair, hospital MRI, basketball, shopping, go overseas. blah.

Instructions: Remove one question from the above, and add in your own personal question, then tag ten people in your list. List them out at the end of your post. notify them in their tagbox that he/she has been tagged.
* Charmaine
* Sherilyn
* Shimin
* Joel Mr Bean
* Chaos
* Jielin
* Ken
* Cheng yu
* Cynthia ng.
i lazy tag la. -.- anyone who wants to do, do ba :D

yesterday was one blahblah day :X
blister uber pain until i cannot walk properly -.-
thn sq and wl came my house piak math xtra prac.
thn bball. dinner.
watch charity show,
slack.

thn today have xi' an meeting at 1 pm at sch.
thn like that i cannot go meet ade-mama at airport :(((
her flight lands at 12.40pm.
six month never see her, i miss her really badly,
mama, hope i can see you soon.
i love you. :D

gg slack :D
Happy holidays xD
ciaos!

ohhyesss :D
finally i'm home. :D
had lunch with daddy :D
he suddenly so good want 请 me 吃午餐. LOL.
and thn went cwp meet ken.
aft that met jeanjean, ceddy and luke. :D
ddr-ed (:
and i can finally dance candy♥ alr (:
messed up many many times until finally can liaos :D
and thn blisters all pokpokgaaaa :X
andand thn bball-ed and thnthn service lo :D
thn went to cwp with luke.
ddr agn thn buy mcspicy :D
whee he can play basic alr :D
ddr is love. (:
umm yeah. i go slack and change blogskin.
ciaos :D

went blog-hopping. and chanced upon this quiz on peishwen's blog.

The Letter A
Are you available?
Yeah.

What is your age?:
Fourteen going on FIFTEEN.

What annoys you?:
很多东西 :X

The Letter B
Do you live in a big house?:
No. A 4-room flat (:

When is your birthday?:
17.o9.1993 (: presents please :X

Who is your best friend?:
Jeanette Wong, and my clique and a few more close friends.

The Letter C
What’s your favorite candy?:
C-h-o-c-o-l-a-t-e (:

The Letter D
Do you daydream?:
Yes.

What’s your favorite kind of dog?:
Chiwawa?

What day of the week is it?:
Saturday.

The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?:
Fried.

Have you ever been in the emergency room?:
No.

What’s the easiest thing ever to do?:
Doing nothing.

The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?:
Yes.

Do you use fly swatters?:
No, I run away from flies.

Have you ever used a foghorn?:
What's that? So, NO.

The Letter G
Do you chew gum?:
Yep.

Are you a giver or a taker?:
Both,

Do you like gummy candies?:
Yeah.

The Letter H
How are you?:
Moody, sad, emo. slightly happy though :D

What color is your hair?:
Black + Brown.

The Letter I
What’s your favorite ice cream?:
Mint chocolate chip.

Have you ever ice skated?:
Yes. And i'm loving it (:

Do you play an instrument?:
Instrument(s) :D um. piano,cornet,F-horn+ a few other brass instruments, a little of drums, and really bad guitar. :X

The Letter J
What’s your favorite jelly bean brand?:
None.

Do you wear jewelry?:
Earsticks.

The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?:
Someone? Anyone? Everyone? Me?

Do you want kids?:
Yes.

Where did you go for kindergarten?:
Blk 15 PAP.

The Letter L
Are you laid back?:
Yeah.

Do you lie?:
Yes.

The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?:
Ah Long Pte Limited, L change the world.

Do you still watch Disney movies?:
Yes. Spirit's really good (:

Do you like mangos/mangoes?:
Yep.

The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?:
Baichi, bubbletea, deni.

What is your real name?:
Look at my profile. -.-

Whats your favorite number?:
14?

Do you prefer night over day?:
Sometimes.

The Letter O
What’s your one wish?:
Um. Good results at end of year and old levels, which comes with happiness :D

The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?:
Love.

What’s a personality trait you look for in people?:
Trustworthiness.

The Letter Q
What’s your favorite quote?:
None yet.

Are you quick to judge people?:
Quite.

The Letter R
Do you think you’re always right?:
Not really.

Are you one to cry?:
Ummm. yes.

The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?:
both.

Do you like snow?:
Yes.

What’s your favorite season?:
Spring.

The Letter T
What time is it?:
11.10Pm

What time did you wake up?:
9am.

When was the last time you slept in a tent?:
During Sec3 Adventure Camp.

The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear?:
Yes.

Underwear or boxers?:
Refer to the above question.

The Letter V
What’s the worst veggie?:
Pumpkin.

Where do you want to go on vacation?:
Xi'an, NZ, Gold Coast, HK, Korea, Japan.

The Letter W
What’s your worst habit?:
Scolding profanities and the middle finger.

Where do you live?:
In my house.

What’s your worst fear?:
Failure, Love, Trust, Creepy crawlies, lonliness.

The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?:
Yeah, in february.

Have you seen the x-games?:
What's that?

Do you own a xylophone?:
My sis does, the crocodile toy one :X

The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?:
Sunshine yellow (:

What’s one thing you yearn for?:
Study hard, love, do well, confidence, trust, etcetcetc.

The Letter Z
Whats your zodiac sign?:
Virgo. Rooster?

Do you believe in the zodiac?:
No. Its bad.

Favorite zoo animal?:
my sister :X LOLS. jkjk, idk.

done :X
gg out to meet onichan to ddr.
ciaos.

伤心失望。

a question to crunchyroll.
why so license dgrayman :(
screw that paoto-er. nw cannot download crunchy dgrayman vids alr :(
veoh vids are uber bigg :X maan. thats saddening :(

currently in a state of uber-emoness. :(
wake up alr sad. :X
thinking about the past few months of my life,
almost worthless. wasted time in focusing about love instead of studies.
wasted time doing nothing instead of something more constructive.
started pointing that middle finger, started scolding all those profanities. -.-
since when was i ever like that? thats not me, that's a monster :(

guess its time to think through my life alr.
haiz. been praying real hard yesterday.
been wanting to find back the right path to God.
all the emptiness showed that i had gone off track,
all the bad things happened showed that i had drifted away,
all the spirit disturbance proved that i was walking away from Christ.
it's time to return to the Father.

and b&b. i just want you to get out of my life, and out of my system,
so just go away will you? unless you want me to say it right in your face,
i wouldn't mind. whoever you are '.'

three things i'm currently unhappy about:
1. Xi' an trip cancelled :(
2. Something.
3. Got to go training during hols.

three things i'm currently happy about:
1. Later Bball.
2. Later DDR.
3. Torty is sexy :X

righto .__.
rlly wna go xi an maans :(
saded like crapp. was like knives all chiong towards my heart when 胡老师 and 沈老师 told me at the gate. :(
and that something.
is something lah! 无聊。
training neh. SIAN. -.-
basketball 好玩！
DDR 有趣 (:
Torty is sexy 还要说吗？太明显了吧(:

Monday got meeting for xi' an 1pm.
guess is 还钱 ba.. :( uberuberuber emo :(

busy week ahead. sad sad sad :X
sis is home. so ciaos.

end of today's emo streak? :X
i guess. just sad :( LOL!
gg dgrayman :X
ciaos.

imagine one day, in the midst of the emptiness,
you realize, that your world had already collapsed,
and you are merely living in a world of nothingness?

ohyes. finally my world has collapsed.
and i do wonder now, does the GOD i believe in actually exist?
firstly. the hopes i held,collapsed the past week,
every single hope i had had been dashed.
my results were awfully bad. (& i cant complain)
my loved ones were attitude-ing. (like whatever)
_____________ (private matter.)
and today, XI AN TRIP IS CANCELLED.

even that trip that i have been looking forward to had been cancelled.
i wanted to just get away from this hectic and stressful life i have been living and just have a good break with my friends.
but now? i don't even have that chance anymore.
three months. it was long.
the mid-years were really bad times,
but i lived through it, holding on to a hope that the days ahead will be good.
i had my holidays planned out alr.
i really wanted to enjoy, but _l_ reality mans.
and stop typing that shit, it hurts me real bad.
real real bad. i'm alr wanting let everything go, don't remind me about it,
please. go away...


and ade-mama, i really can't wait for these three days to pass,
i'm waiting for the hour that you'll return.
i really miss you really badly,
i really missed talking to you,
i missed sharing with you,
i missed hugging you.
it felt really awful when you were not around.
i don't have anyone whom i can confide in. (except jeans)
oh mama, please come back soon..
please... :(

i just feel so so empty. i really want to hug someone and cry.
loneliness,sadness,emptiness.
it feels really bad.
i've been crying the past half an hour,
and i just feel worse. :'(
i am suicidal now.
so just fuck off and leave me alone maans.
and someone, tell me that God exists.
and someone, tell me that i'm loved.
oh GOD, let me feel that YOU are there will you?
i'm tired. & i just wanna fade away.
go away. leave me alone.

three words. I AM TIRED.
today wasn't exactly a good day.
must have woken up on the wrong side of the bed.
and the day's events left me tired and extremely moody :(
and i ended up 发脾气 at some people when they disturb me.
a bigbig 对不起 :(((

woke up at 6.40am.
literally moaned at the numbers my handphone clock was showing me.
no choice, i had to drag myself out of bed. :(
eyelids are alr shutting, and i winced at the light :X
好刺眼啊!! LOL. just prepared and out of the house i went? :X
assembly was lala. so was OMMS. i prefer OHMS. (:
that weird symbol for electricity or sth :X
humanities was okay -.-
just filing. and i got a nicenice PENCIL for improvement in humanities.
its wrapped in recycled paper :X unlike the usual wood stuff.
so its uber cool :D &yeah love the design :D

maths was *insert estericks*
got called again :X for um. i forgot.
OH yeah. just to write (PROVEN).
that was really dumb. the times teacher called me these three days is like idk how many times teachers called me during the past half year :X
dunno whether its a curse or blessing.

recess was okay. :X
basketball agn. not on form. *takes torty. hug and sleep*
and ate. :X
took height and weight -.- i grew taller by 1.1cm and i'm 154.1cm (:
so happy that i grew taller cans :X

chinese was s-l-a-c-k.
that normal chinese paper gave me a headache.
i realised how much i hated multiple choice comprehensions. :X
structured is funs :X ok i'm weirdo :X

chemistry even more filing. Bio was like FT duh. Mrs Tee is ohsocool.
tio kannaboomboom by the dumbdumb CD file :X
and school was over.

and i plead.
the news are bad.
don't let anything happen. :X
still want to go xi' an de.
keep the place disaster-free FATHER.
oh please :( don't let the trip be cancelled :(

training was okay.
didn't run stairs cause leg pain :X
and beep test, did vv badly. :(
agn leg pain!! :X
ball work and court work.
WD agn. (:
miss WD-ing after not gg on court as WD for ages :X
pain lurh, but 忍忍忍!! (:
881 bball thn home. :X

next, a meme taken from kyoya-sama's blog (:

Hi, my name is:
Pearly.

When I'm nervous:
Keep quiet, go pale, walk around.

By this time next year:
I'm crushed by homework.

PART 1: YOU

Were you a planned baby?:
Do you need a plan to have a baby?!

Were you the first?:
Yes.

PART 2: YOUR PERSONALITY

Do you have low self esteem?:
Maybe. I think so :X

Are you happy right now?:
No. with a capital 'N'. i'm in an emotional state and depression :X
not that bad i guess. but MTP session is tmr :( and holidays are coming :D


PART 3: APPEARANCE

Are you comfortable with the way you look?:
Yeah, quite.

Describe your hair:
Thin and not long and not short either. :X flyaway hair comes in abundance.

PART 4: RANDOM

Ever been arrested?:
No. (: good girl!


PART 5: THE OUTDOORS

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
Outdoors =/ and indoors for sleeping (:
i'm white pig :D

Do you like walking in the rain?:
Yes. (: Crying in the rain is better :D
the sorrows get washed away along with my tears :X

Do you like thunderstorms?:
Uh. If i'm sleeping thn is good :D


PART 6: FOOD

Are you a vegetarian?:
No. :X

Anything you absolutely could eat forever?:
Mcspicy.


PART 7: RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE

Do you like where your are with ur romance?:
Um. i dont know.

PART 8: RANDOM QUESTIONS

Where is your cell phone?:
Beside me.

Cheesecake?:
um. depends.

Your dream last night?:
i don't really remember.

Car you want?:
Subaru Rx 8

Your fears?:
A lot :( heartbreak, loneliness, bugs :X

Did you grow up?:
Physically yes. Emotionally, hmm yes. :X

Tattoos?:
Those that can be rubbed of with soap :D

Tomato Sauce?:
No really, except those in pasta.

Your friends?:
My girlfriends,close friends,korkor,meimeis,jiejie,didi & friends families. (:

What are you thinking about right now?:
Onichan! (:

Your work?:
Student :D study -.-


Part 9: LIFE

Who knows the most about you?:
God.

Who do you blame for your mood today?:
Nobody.

What is making you sad right now?:
Something. Something.

What was the first thing you did this morning?:
Wake up -.-

Last person you went out to dinner with?:
MUM!

Do you drink lots of water?:
Yes.

What toothpaste do you use?:
Darlie.

Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
Neither. =x

Who was the last person you took a picture with?:
That person. :X

Last person you went to the movies with?:
Ken onichan :D

What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
I dont know yet.

What are you looking forward to right now?
Xi' an trip.

Part 10: IF YOU HAD TO:

If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
Brown.

If you HAD to get a piercing (not ears) what would you get?
NONE.

to ___ : 不要走.. :( 如果不是缘分,我怎么会认识你呢?

well. gotta go.
ciaos.

友情出现的劣衡，是否能合好如初？

today. is jackpot day.
i got SEVEN files for checking. -.-
重马票也没那么准。。
thank teckchuan for saving me from english file.
so i'm left with SIX. -.-
its like, WHY SO 14?!?!?! -.-
the teachers seem to love the number 14 for file check =X
i don't want be no. 14 liaos :(
its like @#$%. still got xi'an research to rush and handed to MR XUNXUN by 9pm.
and a physics assignment and tys :(
tmr's like the last day of school, so here comes the hustle and bustle of the nonsense-s. :X

school was rather boring :X
whole day just piakking file after file :X
do until want to crazy alr :(
this is called 平日不烧香，临时抱佛脚。
i want lots of candy :)
candy is gooood for keeping yourself awake during the world's most boring lesson's
and the sugar makes me haaapppyyy :D
-.- like promoting candy like that. :X

basketball wasn't that good :X
personal reasons :(
and ankle is going to burn out anytime :(
damnnn :X i really gotta stop maan :(
and got knocked real hard by xiaocutecutebao. cause he thought i was king kong.
-.- ello. i don't think i even look like kingkong. neither do i hump.

and tmr training. got the _l_ beep test.
dontwantdontwantdontwant.
and i dont want to climb 9 sets of stairs either :(
ltr my leg keep on 发抖&痛痛 :(

thn after school the xi'an meeting. :X
blahblahblahblah~
thn slacked around school with wl and tc =/
got a call frm dad. he said BE HOME BY 5.
i was like HAAAAAHHH??!!!?!?!?!?!
LOL-some. and whatever.
screw the hornest aircon.
in the end couldn't play anymore bball. _l_ sad mann D:

so slack slack and drink wintermelon tea :D
it is loveeeeeeee :D
thn decided to go online as i had to do a research anw :X
and of course blogggg (:
so RANDOM .___.

and my handbook is filled with emoemo chinese notes :X
ohmytian '.' why so chinese again?
i just wish i could give in to the blade once more.
maybe all the pain would be gone.
well. that really silly boy.
don't 狡辩 anymore cans, we tag you cause we care.
醒一醒吧。。 i really wish i can see that smile on your face once more. (:

and honey. dont be sad anymore. be happy. really dont wanna see you sad. giving you my full blessings with your boy. be happy. just be happy, ok? i love you, and no matter what, i'll love you always. (:

guess i shouldnt make my feelings and thoughts known.
and only share it with the two people closest to me,
the only ones who really know me more than other people,
it may not be in my likes and hates,
but more of my feelings.
thn i wont hurt anyone anymore, hopefully.
well. i have a few files to settle as well as a TYS.
AHHHHHHH@#$!!!!!!!
45 minutes more to hand in the research to mr GROUPLEADER xunxun.
eh go bugis HORRRR (:
byebye.

i hate myself,
i made her sad,
damn, i shouldn't have asked her.
should have just kept quiet even when i knew.
I'M SO STUPID!!!!

decided to post this stuff in chinese.
as my chinese expressions are atrocious,
and o lvls are like a few months away,
so chinese post :X

今天。是个星期二。
虽然只是如平凡的星期二似的，但心情却十分的沉重。
起初带着闷闷不乐的心情上学去，埋怨着要面对的情况。
我无法面对她，也无法面对他。
最后还是拖着沉重的脚步上学去了.
今天的课堂闷到我无法专心.
天气又温暖.不知不觉地,我早已不再听课,而在和朋友们玩Bingo.
玩了之后, 就是recess了.
在那段时间,还能做什么呢?
只有两个选择,一就是打篮球.二就是和朋友们吃饭.
今天心情不太好,因此选择打球.卫冕扫兴.
虽然玩得不错,但心情上还是有阻碍.
心里想着"烦死人啦!!!"
一阵天尽量板着脸,不透露我的心情,并不容易.
直到华文班,我终于垮了.
我一边做作业, 一边静静地流眼泪,我开始讨厌流下脸的眼泪,
我是问自己,为什么性格那么弱,为什么不能放下一切的遗憾,一切的痛苦,再重新振作起来.
我想了很久,终于良心发泄了.
我不能因为我自己的感情而连累我好朋友的幸福, 最后决定放弃一切.
退让一步. 所谓"忍一时风平浪静,退一步海阔天空",
现在虽然还有一丝的伤心,但想起我朋友所得到的幸福,就心满意足了.
人生会经过不少的错则,但选择逃避或选择面对的决定在自己的手里.
只想对那位打篮球的朋友说声对不起,今天因为心情上的困扰打球时时下手太重.
十分抱歉.

zzz. done with posting in chinese :X
i'm so lucky that i tio 4 file checks today :(
@#$%@@#$%@#$% so sian.
idk if i type anything wrong up there.
if yes, thn i'm vv sorry :X
&gtg. gotta chiong Amaths and Emaths file. :(
ciaos.

DARLINGG&GIRLFRIEND!!!!
PICS FOR SEOUL GARDEN ALR UP (:
SCROLL DOWN FOR IT YUPPP (:
SORRY FOR LATE UPLOADS.
x33 you all (：
明天见!!! ^_^

ciaos (:
gd night people (:

well, i'm back. (:
i gave up on that uber fast com,
as its sound ports were spoilt :(
sad. it could have been a good and ultimate lagger's jr.
if i could upgrade the RAM and added powerpoint,
it will be goooooodd :DDDDDD
haiz nevermind lah :( i stick with my laptop wife through thick and thin and ultimate lags :D
x3lovveeeeees (x

um yeah. bball was rather sucky today. :X
@#$% off form :( and 5 blisters under my foot alr :(
&ankle @#$% painpainpainpain!!! :
saded!!! :((( haiz whatever -.-
went home with dumbdumb.
freaked out by the lift agn :(
bananananananananananas.

well. gg to talk on phone and viwawa a bit alr.
ciaos.

i'm a good girl.
i never cry alr.
may feel down at times,
but, i don't want swollen eyes! :X

lols.
just got my new computer.
though it has a NOOB ram of 256mb.
but its upgradable :D
and its fast (:
thanks WL and BAO help me set up (:
and yeah they at my hse nw.
ltr gg 178 to bball :D
so ciaos.

as much as i wish to cry,
i wont (:

fushan bball hoop when it was okay :D


sunset(:


sunrise(:

SEOUL GARDEN PICS
















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circle soup (:


circle soup with beancurd :D frm MRBEAN.



sky(: that white dot is the moon :D


spaghetti i cook ytd. (:


road :D


yesterday's chocolate milk :D


wintermelon tea from onichan :D


picture i took from xiao huan ytd :D wallpaper (:
to: natnat laopo & xiaohuan laopo & jeanjean laogong, shimin darling and sherilyn girlfriend(:
LOVES x3


umm yup :D
just nw went to cwp.
met with ken and aaron.
went arcade. ddr-ed!! it is addictive :D
managed to play medium mode (:
quite okay yupp :D
funfunfun. until blister all break. =x *painpain*
thanks ken onichan for treating yupp :D
met wh and his friend.
and blahblahblah.
went each-a-cup for bubbletea as the queue at sweet talk was uber long =x
walkwalkwalk with ken.
walked back to my house there. (:
dinner with mum.
thn go cut hair. :X
everytime when i uber happy i cut hair.
now uber emo also cut hair.
dots. cut hair also got mood de -.-
LOLS. cut hair because hair thick liao la.
think so much for what .__.
now super thin hair ._. tie got problem liaos.
*sighs* parents quarreled ytd, today still coldcold de.
thn i sad lo. :( stucked in the middle,watching dad attitude everyone :(
haiz. troubleful la. hope they tmr will be okay ba.. :)

um. this post took rather long to type :X
was too busy viwawa-ing with cute baobao :D
and yeah.
would like to thank..
AARON,KEN,JEANETTE for cheering me up whn i was sad.
and helping me to stand up when i fell. (:
this is the love i'm looking for.
not that.
korkor,korkor,laogongg :D
now i okay le :D
smiles(:
and my goondu torty,
become salty goongoon.
but i still lovelovelove lotslots.
happy pearly is coming back (:
hehes. say byeebyee to the blues.

and i say this one last time,
laopo, be happy with him. don't ever give up. zhi dao ma?

maaan. i want to call onichan and laogong liaos.
nightnight people.
and darling and girlfriend.
come grab the pictures (:
sorry for uber late uploads.
loves (:
byebye!

true friends are the angels who will stand by you through thick and thin (:
&now, they are the ones who mean the most to me,
more than anything else (: