i admit i got turned off by certain things.
and i certainly am pissed off.
but all i can say is.
dont ask me why.

for i wrote my misgivings in the sand.
the wind blew it away.
not too long later, the particles were blown back.
and when i carved my happiness on the stone.
you struck it off with a blade.
which marred it forever.

every memory was a blade.
sticking itself deep into the pits of my heart.
ripping it into a million shreds.
and left to the eagles.

and from that day on.
i knew that love was not to be trusted.
and promises were meant to be broken.
none of these worldly desires nor creations,
were worth of thy trust.

nevermind. i'm just lost in the world of misgivings.
lost in the whirl of confusion.
and alone in the dark corner of this world.
there's been some things that i really want to let out.
instead of bottling it down.
but in the end, i just keep it inside.
i've wanted to apologise.
if you thought it were my mistake.
and all would be fine.
but my stubborness would never permit that.
for i felt i'm not in the wrong.
almost a month has past.
and each day feels emptier than the previous one.
you may smile as i suffer.
for you will never see me cringe.
even at the sight of the pain.
and now all i'm trying to do.
is to endure the endless pain life is bringing me.
many a times, i wonder why.
why is this like this, and not the other way round.
why is all these pain landing on me.
why do i feel so empty, when i'm supposed to be filled with love.
from my friends,my family and my sweetheart?
why is the world so void?
is my perspective set wrong? or did i wake up at the wrong side of the bed?
what wrong did i exactly do?
all i really want to do now,
is just to break down and cry,
and end this life of agony.

this day,
has been a fking tiring and boring and painful day.
bottling up all the emotional conflict within me.
and keeping a smile on my face.
netball was a literal waste of time.
and got reprimanded cause i went to canteen to slack.
i have a DAMN mc for goodness sake.
why do i have to waste my time there when i jolly well can go home and accomplish more things?
and why must there be so much work and so little time?!
i'm sick and tired of this.
just get lost and leave me alone..

well.
its been a sleepy weekend =3
went to run 2.4km and gym yesterday morning to train for mass run.
thn went to dance.
skipped cg cause i was too tired and went home to sleep.
thn went for service.
thn pasar malam and bought a cube for $1.
and train-ed home.
after that dinner-ed and supper-ed.
sleep. and erm. got thing disturb. f5.
thn took a long time to sleep agn.
today.
gotta chiong hmwk.
stupid amaths ihateyou =x
yeah and got a lot of things on my mind.
yeah. so ciaos.

doubt kills love. love killed doubt..

you forgot me...? =(
love killed me.

well.
imagine life turning the right side up one second,
and collapsing the next.
thats how screwed up things are? LOLS.
after all. this isn't a perfect world.

well. ran 2.4km for P.E. 14.o1 mins.
drop le =( mann. got to train train!!
lol and stomach damn ache. cause i ran on an empty stomach =x
ahaha. bad habit of NOT eating breakfast. =x
then basketballed (:
damnnnn tireddd cannnnN!
then lingz sprained ankle.
hobble here and there.
thn some dulann sec 1s mimick.
i diao them until daoooooo! ><
see people injured still so immature. kids..
thn picked up call for pizza during english lesson.
the teacher didn't care anw.
whatever!
thn pizza time.
makan cheer (:
yatta. =x lols.
and pizza-ed.
thn bballed.
erm. match with regular people.
then shot balls/baskets? (idk the term?)
thn teamed with weicheng against two sec 2s.
that one ne. me are damned off form. cause veryvery TIRED le =3
and weicheng PRO can!!! (: *thumbs up*
got another shen she shou le. =x lols.
idk why i play until a bit kuku that time. =x
but okay laaaas (:
thbasketballaddict(:
then the dumb lightning signal went off thn byebye-ed to bball. =(
yeah. then taught yihui, huiming, kelvin, aaron, weiliang, eugene and idk who else the trainer de cup thing.
kangmin know how siah. and he fast siahhh!! LOLS. theAMWAYsmell=x
thn play play play (:
take video toos(:
send me the video pleaseeeeee(:
FUN(: x3 the cupp thing.
then play arm wrestling.
wakakka. I NEVER abuse my sis lahhh!!!! scold niaaa =x
train by weights and ermmmmm... playing ball games (: --basketball&netball.
erm yeah.
then tompang(er. what's the term? englishly speaking-hitched a ride?) huiming's car with weiliang.
thankyouuuu(: --to huiming andand his mum andand sis (:
thn pei-ed wl go eat dinner. intro him to caibeng at b166 de (: cheap and yumms =x
thn went home.
dinner-ed and teevee-ed thn online-ed!
yeah.
long day tmr.
3/4 mass runners training 8.30am at woodlands stadium.
Dance at 10.00am. (damn.)
if i'm really damnnedd tired. i'll skip dance or go later. i'm human. i need my rest.
and i didn't get that message. thanks a million for screwing up my schedule. T.T
mann. finally a almost homework-free weekend and i'm packed.
i want a break mannn!
LOLS. later after 11 call hhm =x
and onichan call me soon yup (:
tctc (:
and ciaos!

sometimes i feel empty, sometimes i feel full with love=content. sometimes.. it's just a dull feeling of loss. am i overly sensitive or what? all i knw is that i love you so. =X

i realised i haven't been spending much time with my clique due to bball.. guiltyguilty. sorry. i'll make up for it.. =x love you guys. (:

well. tmr is 3/4's PIZZA DAY(:
we have ordered the pizzas(:
went with jf,kaiyuan and teckchuan(:
12 pizzas and 2 sets of wedges and nuggets + 5 bottles free drinks.
total cost: $200.90.
thanks tchers and our poor class fund =x
well its after school. at 1230 (:
find a location to eat heh.
those who cant make it bring tupperware or sth to da paooo?
hahahs(: MAKAN CHEER(:
sup *clap clap clap clap* sup *clap clap clap clap* sup sup sup sup xi shua shua xi shua shua xi shua shua PIZZA! (:
well. (: thn walked with jf to his hse downstairs thn i shun lu walk home.
everything on the way de ==''
thn slack and sms.
now thinking about certain things that have to settle de.
kuku. blurblur kaoooos!
blur liao la...
pizza. reminds me of adi.
ADI:"i am half italian. i can speak italian! PIZZA! see?"
mann. i miss him so much. and TK. keeonn korkor knws thm.
gona ask him for their emails. puhlease give. :X
well. 3/4 pizza!
&ciaos!

well. add the hours and subtract the minutes and add seconds. time changes. but my love will not waiver. :x
iareCORN&EMO&MOOODY&loveddd..

i havent been posting for a few days.
define: busy.
well. to keep it short.
saturday. bball. cg. games. home. happy birthday to Ezekiel korkor and DADDY!
sunday. cg lunch at pizza hut(boomb!) and home-ed.
found out about a shitty curfew. wdf.
monday. what else? school. cca. damn sian can?
tuesday. school again lurh. bball. and got injured left thumb and homed with hhm. (:
today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINYING(: spent eng and maths doing card. waahhahaaha. and.. see the pile of homework there? no you dont. my dog ate it. and fyi i dont have a dog.
bballed. fck. injured finger hurt like crapp and muhh paikaa. i hate my ankle. poor joelDADDY also paika. tctc. [: thanks for pinkdolphin cookie (: and homed with hhm (:
LOLS. cant wait for next tue. seoul with cliqueee (:
when is chichi family gonna Seoulll?? =xxx
needa chiong homework so ciaos.

dgraymannx33
when is this ever gonna stop? unlimited flow of work ==''
pearly=moody and stressed= CAUTION: I BITE.
if only time could stop.. but it cant. so i'll just treasure every minute i have.. (: x3s

[edited]


(: the chichi family.

sports carnival.
defined as: Rocks mannn!!
morning weather was windy and dark and not very promising. (and i got SUNBURNT at the end of day -.- )
had a performance by modern dance and an OMMS presentation by Haiza.
and some competitors pledge thing.
then CORE GAMES!
core games were so FUN
me are in team 1 with tj, jazz, pyae and mel. [:
against 3/3.
DRAW ^_^
cheer like a kuku until me po hou long =x LOLS.
drank a lot a lot water =x (thanks to wl!! )
and at the end we won SECOND for core games and got banana and apple -.-
then BASKETBALL!
lalas. lost to 3/2.
**** siah. they damn violent. hate it.
zha bor use ass. make me fall twice. screw you lah.
then the guy even better.
i tio knock down.
head hit floor. fish. i headache till now. ihateyouasshole.
lost 1-0.
after that match damn scared. damn nervous. damn hurt. cried..
after that. i felt better. way better. i became on form. and i admit.
i have the killer glint and instinct to play my best and of course. win.
that match was against 3-8.
blurblur pangseh-ed me =(
he say want play de.
but aaron and jw want play. saded =(
lols. but we won, 6-2. ^_^
then 3/6.
joelDADDY tio cramp. =(
saded. but we won!!
4-0. yatta~
and then 3/7.
damndamn. wk so tall. shuli so fast T__T
but we won 1-3. [:
and into the finals we went for 3rd and 4th placing [:
lols. and it was against 3/5 =/
lalala. was quite a tough match [:
we won 6-1 and we got 3RD!
lols. thanks for your hard work--TONGJUN.JAZZ.TECKCHUAN.LINGMEI...me. =x
3/4 rocks! 3+3rnity!
me scored 7 balls. LOLS. and fell down around 10 times.

ps... fell asleep halfway while posting.. back at 5.30pm!

erm. then referee-ed for sec 2 and 4 netball.
damned. the sun was sweltering hot. ._.
and yeah. i can say. the referee-ing for sec 2 wasn't as bad as for the sec 4s.
cause sec4s can dao us mann. =x the power of seniority -.- damned.
and keeping track of center pass was not very hard.
cause in one game... erm sometimes only 2 center pass.
cause the ball fly out and out and never go in T_T
tian ah. 4/2 also dao. replace injured player take own sweet time. dao like crap. waste time only.
unfair for 4/6 mann.
and the 4/1 vs sec 5s.
damned i just realised i call the sec 5s as 5/1 cause got hengyin inside. crap . nvm =x
then the 4/1 also dao like crap. say i not loud enough. i was like. damn. i repeat so many times. need hearing aid ah. -.- then i started shouting the fouls. bushuangs. i dao u back >=D
lols. then captain ball finals not enough ppl.
thn tio called in. wdh i ps two matches of umpiring. damned.
LOL. lost to 3/7 and got 4th. =(( saded.
and Netball got 1st!
well done 3/4 girls in netball event! ^_^
LONG JUMP also 1st!
well done threefour!!!
and THREEFOUR is... OVERALL CHAMPION FOR SEC 3!
yay. WE ROCKK!!!! ^_^

and blah. at the end of sc got xi an meeting. =x
have to pay $738 from edusave =x
excited because can go with my gaochi
but sad cause i will miss my MR.ChEEKy.
mannn. =x =/ iwillreallyreallyreallymisshimleh.. T__T
lols. =x then went cwp with gaochi, aichi, huachi and wl.
and went to find dar. =x
bballed a bit. tired liaos ._.
fall agn. wdh man. who is cursing me. T_T LOLS.
thn dinner-ed with kel, blur and cookie.
lols. kel and blur eat ban mian very funny =x
esp kel. =x the soup ah. =xxxx
and then had some poking session =3 kel scared tickle =x
took 912 to near fuchun cc with blur and cookie.
thn went cc to fetch sis.
byebye-ed to blur and cookie. =(
and thn went home.
9-plus reach home =x
chichi family eat SEOUL GARDEN one day puhllleaseee ^^
talked to blur on phone.
thn sleep.

this morning got good friday service.
ok lah. in the end. realised a lot of things lah. =x
prayed. and yeah. end of service.
went with keeonn korkor to bball.
keeonn knows ADI and TK. but he dont want give numbb. T_T poke him lurh! LOLS.
and then went 883 for lunch.
then took 911 with blur.
and ____________-----_______________----- (fill in blanks)
lols. reach home at 3plus.
and yeah bathed and knocked out. =x
superr tired cann!! T_T
yeah. like that lo.
and heres some random pics! ^_^


milkybar smarties from candy empire x3


basketball =3


sec3 basketball 3rd trophy [:



x3 basketball x3 threefour!


hohuiming zi bi =x


LOLS. i go watch dgrayman ep75 le.
so ciaos & have a good friday and weekend ahead!

23.o2.o8 x3 (:

LOL. after a day of RAIN. i hope tmr will be a SUNNY day ^_^
class tee came today.
thanks to zhenzhen for enlarging the pic to A3 for us for free.
THANKS A MILLION mannn! ^_^
lessons were laaadiiidaa.
still clueless abt bridgette wong's teaching.
mannn! miss lee ain't that bad compared to her mann. [:
LOLS. training was slack.
went to the gym and ran for 7 to 8 mins on the treadmill.
^_^ yatta. LOLS.
and i'm damn damn damn off form today. =(
really like crap, missing all the shots that was possible to put in. utter disappointment in myself
i really gonna cry already.
i cant imagine having a backslide the day before the sports carnival.
i must have a good rest tonight.
and i pray my form will come back tmr.
and me can be on form. =x
and i sprained me ankle again.
ok not really a sprain, but a slight twist causes it to haywire already.
taken pain killers and the glycocemin pill thingy.
ug. DuMB AnKl3. you better be ok.
my events should be at the first few hour then i will be at netball umpiring le =]
mann. gotta revise siah. =x nervous. =3 LOLS.
the bball class we against are damnned pro.
so gonna do our best.
since we are against the stronger teams.
3/4 WE CAN DE. BI SHENG!! xD
all events for sc must jiayou and must CHEEEEEEEEEERRR xDDDDDD
campp mood is back for me =x
lols. actual fact, i have been in camp mood all the way =x
lols. well. blur say me can do it de. and blur can do it de.
jiiayouuus ^_^
well. gonna read dyx for inspiration.
ciaos!

iloveyou&imissyou =x

well.
i guess i will keep this post short,
for i'm not in the mood to blog or anything.
just in the mood to throw something out of the window.
and just hope that it lands on something i hate.
and boom. taaadaa. LOLS.
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN ONICHAN ^_^
yeah well.
what more can i do today.
when to shao house to play cards and mahjong.
and bballed.
certain things do piss me off.
emoing and moodless.
thn after bball.
huiming and weiliang and me took 911.
they pei me to my block then they went home.
gaaa! headache+legache+heartache(?!)
lols. done with my public speaking at this odd hour.
like FINALLY.
i'm clearing my work.
and class tee is coming tmr at 3pm.
payment puhleaseee. nice puhleasee. gosh. so damn WORRIED CAN?!
and screw. i have training.
mann i want ponn. give le mc also cannot pon.
no logic LAH. wdh mann.
i want train my bball. i cant get off form now.
puhleasee. form. stay till sc and give the fullest then.
please dont rain.
excited. =x
& imissyoulikemadlahhhhh!!!!!
x3s. [:
lols.
its like 7 and a half more hours.
see you.
ciaos.

misses like maddd! =x

mannnnnn.
i finished my orals.
like FINALLY lah!!! ^_^
yaye. i'm at peace and all that is left is to convert the files.
netball training was damned sian.
man i'm gonna get mum to write a letter to excuse me from training totally.
man that mc =cannot train = still must go.
wdf siah. waste my time only.
and yeah. bball after that.
super on form until i shock siah.
was sick and tired of chest passes during training ==''
hehe. if sc can have that kinda form.
me are gonna be happy. =x
lols. well well am gonna brush up a bit here and there lols.
=x and tmr have meeting at podium for all sc referees tmr at 245 pm.
attendance is compulsory? =x
hahas. someone please remind me. i will FORGET ><
LOLS. SC in 3 days.
OMGOMG. dont rain. PLEASE DONT RAIN. =x
praying hard xD
burning stuff into CD. (with a match and blah)
so ciaos!

edit//
I HAVENT DONE MY SPEEECHHHHH. URGGGGGGGGGG.

haven't been online for a few days.
and haven't watch dgrayman ep74 either.

umm yeah.
its been about three days since i posted.
and holiday mood cum camp mood is going to change to STUDY mood.
lols. with a tinge of SLACK [:
Humanities lessons on thursday,
copy notes and discussion.
short and simple and sweeeeeet.
then went for dance =x
andandand met up with huiming,paul,jinying,kelvin for bball at admiral gardens.
mannn. =x
rain is niceee...for sleeping. =P
lols. stuck in 912 for 1 hour. =x
cold but _________________________________. (fill in the blank)
fun siahh =] because of you =x
then friday.
went to watch spiderwick chronicles with chika.
niceeeeee xD but i hid behind my hands. grrr. scared siah =x
then went to 515 to find aaron kor before heading to fushan =x
mann no dance agn.
and yeah me not gandi. make me walk back and forth lurh. T_T
then bballed lo. =x hahahs.
saturday was a bball agnagn.
in the morning at 881 thn to 883 for lunch thn to fushan thn to shao hse then to fushan agn =x
and service. pastor vernon msg was short. (shocked.) =x
thn bballed till 7.15pm before chionging home with blur and lukey.
sorry make you sad. =( llovees.
ahahhas.
then CHIONG homework.
man. i left one a math worksheet blank as i am clueless on how to do sia.
=x screwed up.
then talked with luke then blur. =x
today.
uneventful except for tons of homework and meeting blur.
like that lo =x
HOMEWORK ftw. T__T
mannn. EIGHT more orals-3 read 5 conversation.
ug. DGRAYMAN PRIORITY [:
so ciaos! ^__^

clueless.
do i actually really care..?
l3r0l<3n.

wheee my internet is up and running again.
hohohos. i hope that will be the last of that anonymous tagger.
though i'm rather clear who he is. but i dont care anymore.
just know that. i hate you.

wellwell.
my life isn't as perfect as that anonymous tagger states it as.
i've been really down lately.
and it is simply getting worse as the days passes.
i've gotten a hypothesis-ed diagnosis of my ankle.
and it is bad. obviously.
and have an exemption from physical activities for 1 month.
as well as 90 pills to try to mend the cartilage.
and also have to go for an MRI scan soon to check.
mannn. exposed to high frequency rays =xx
and mannn. dr andrew is cutee. as mum has said.
ahahas. who knows. an operation might be needed.
i'm so screwed up =x

and hahahaas.
many should know me as the crazy and happy pearly.
yes. and clearly i have a dark side too. (well,who doesn't?)
i'm so happy nowadays that it doesnt show.
unless i have hormone imbalance?
ilovemylife. get it? iloveme. if i cant love myself, how can i love others?
and i♥basketball.
hate to leave it for a month but yeah..
its all for the best.
i'll stop after sports carnival.
and do my best till then.
BI SHENG!!! >=D
go 3/4 MOLECULE [: we rock!! [: and please catch that BUMBLEBEE ^__^
loveddd! [:
and shucks. i really miss ADI and TK. ( the 2 people who put a smile on my face)
and the BB boys are going kota tinggi for camp.
embrace the TOILETS =x
they are so.. "CLEAN"
and puhhleasee get ADI and TK email if you cannnn..
mannnnnnn. i miss them. i miss camp. i miss 3/4.
wanttss the RIVER ^__^
and the after camp rashes are so very itchy can?
grrrrr. humanities lesson tmr and dance. i wantt pictureeee
i wonder if moyashi is back.
found out some stuffs today.
i'm worried and i'm scared.
haiz. guess i'll pray about it.
i know my spiritual life now is rock bottom ZERO.
but i'll start. now.
i dont want to drift further anymore.
guide me. someone. to the right path. =x
and i'm tired.
so little time, so much to do, so much to worry about.
and i wonder. WHERE IS MY HOMEWORKKKKK????!!!! =xxxx
well. ciaos! ^__^

its really cold now.. =x
warmth is such a luxury.. mann..

i wanna talk to vernon. i'm deeepresssed. =x

LOL. that was random.
morning randomness!
just hope that retarded fight on my tagboard is over.
lol-ism. boredom and sleepiness and homework is kuku.

had a good rest last night.
thanks for the msg [:
very touched siah =x
lols.
long days for the next three days. ==''
and i haven't touched my homework at all.
screwed up.
today going to kirara hse to do chi oral recording thn bball with shao and people.
tmr. humanities lesson and hospital appointment.
thur humanities lesson again.
define: boredom.
and i'm still in CAMP mood.
who isn't anyway..? =x
we are in camp mood.
and we miss ADI and TK <3333
mannnn!! miss them so much laaaaaas!!!
memories are sweeeet. and loves tk and adi. and 3/4 molecule.
best camppp ever!! lols.
campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood
campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood
campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood
campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood campmood!!
lols random.
got sth else to do le.
so ciaos!

iloveyou[:
x3mysunshine!

Well.
it seems that the anonymous flamer is back.
with a series of profanities as well as scorn and suan-ing my friends.
its seemingly irritating. especially when it is to the moyashi,my onichan and of course my fellow 3/4 atom.
and number of posts is floooding my tagboard =x
should i thank you with wide open arm and a plastic smile..? *pukes*
lols. guess i should reply in one whole chunk to that very special COWARD who cant show his name in this particular post. heh.

"TO:______"
you think you are all high and mighty? coming here to hide your name and flame my blog?
as a matter of fact, it seems that you are the biggest and most low-class coward i have ever come across.
as mrs tee often says:"your parents gave you your name,why cant you use it?"
simply like that. don't come and talk big about me not knowing to love and saying that i dont love GOD. ask that jerk who made me lose faith in love during that particular period of time.
want to blame, blame him. who knows? you may be him. well we will never know, for you are just a coward hiding under a FALSE front. a ninny who dont even DARE to show your wimpy face.
what big talk about fantasy. what a loser you are man. if you aren't happy about what i write here, then don't come. no one cares for your lousy and insignificant tags on my tagboard. wo bu xi han. and what do you know about love. judging by what you said, that JESUS died for you. and you, come here and say such loser things. you are not portraying and showing the image and love of GOD through you. with your unlimited amount of profanities and discrimination of others. i admit, i'm not perfect. or PURRFECT as you say. and i dont see that i am portraying a PURRFECT side of my life here. life is full of ups and downs. and you are just one of them. people change, my heart changes. who says i am going to dwell on loving that jerk for i-dont-know-how-long-more..? i'm not that naive to hold on to something that is merely a huge lie.humans learn from their mistakes. its mere human nature. it took me 3 mistakes to learn my lesson, but what can be more valuable than the lesson learnt..? i have moved on. and so should you. stop being such a loser. and i shan't waste anymore time talking to a person like you.

fullstops! =x
hahahs.
watched L-Change the world today with onichan.
thanks a million for pei-ing me even though you watch before le =x
and thanks for maccs [:
then went bowling at safra yishun with church people [:
funns [:
got a singtel topup card [:
hehs. then home lo.
lalalas. then onichan came find me agn cause i cry =x
dont worry laaas. i'm ok [:
yup. something is wrong with my internet connection now.
so ciaos!

she is imperfect,and she's loving it.
iloveyou. [:

imagine.
when you come back from camp,
and you see a flamer tagging.
"roflmaos." *starts rolling on floor due to camp mood..?*
nuh-uh. its a crazy spoiler mannn =x
but who cares. such people should just get a life.
no one is pointing them at gun point to tag or visit my blog.
so why come..?
and as ken onichan has said. both the two lines above and my next lines.
that person should be shot dead..?
nah. wait for judgement day.
though i know i sin. i know that Jesus died for them. and paid with HIS life and love for us.
but i know my limits.
and. living in denial..?
certain minor matters,
but 10000% not about the matter that happened around two weeks ago?
i dont really care.
stick to the status quo man.

and enough about this matter of flaming.
this is MY space and i have the RIGHTS to say i want HERE.
so GET LOST if you intend to FLAME.
and fyi: fuckyou.com isn't an email server. its more like a sex search engine and forum.
so. ahem ahem. *clears thorat*
*gives a ultimate gu niang clap and ultimate bimbo clap and MILO.*

yesyes. now about camp!!!
i would like to dedicate the next paragraph to our beloved trainers, TK (Diana) and ADI.
thanks a million for being such great and spontaneous trainers throughout the camp.
without you, the class would never have had such a wonderful experience throughout camp.
and under your guidance, our class has bonded closer together.
and as we go our separate ways after the camp.
to ADI: Good luck in NS. and sure. if i see you around i will TAP you on the shoulder & say: ADI so ugly he makes me puke! kidding lah. will miss you loads our trainer. paiseh couldnt save you when you got dumped into the river. hahahahaaaaas!
to TK: Hope you will get good A level results. and good luck for your studies overseas. take care. and i'll miss you and hope that i will see you again one day. for TK is sexy like wooooh! [:
as we are your 37 stars,
you are the guiding lights which led us through the camp[:
iloveyou and imissyou TK and ADI!!!!

yesyes. [:
o7.o3.o8 FRIDAY
school!
tuas!
JB.
KOTA TINGGI RAINFOREST!!!!!
the 100 year old wooden bridge. ==lll
muddy and *bleah* toilets. with a complimentary piece of dung. =x
lunch!! the two carnivores:JUNFENG AND MELODY.
and the COOKIE weiliang!
went to tents. TENT 18 is LOVE [:
TENT MATES: jielin,natalie,melody,lingmei,audrey,yanjun [:
went river crusading.
ilovetheRIVER!!
so fun mann!
then rock climbing.
suay kuan. wanted flying fox mann!!
banged against the rock of the rock climbing wall =(
and got a medical record at RACE due to a..BRUISE. ==''
and dinner.
then the freaky night walk.
GRRRR!! night walk. oh man!
creepy!! but thank GOD He was there and LINGMEI toos!
she tell me cold jokes until i frozen to death. =x jkjk.
and then debriefed and SLEEP!
the mosquitoes are fat and they pwn lahh!!

o8.03.2008 SATURDAY
wake up~ *sleepyyy mode*
morning calisthenics. ==''
and breakfast!!
waterproofing as the weather look gloooooooooooooooomy.
then indiana jones!!!!
omgomgomgomg.
so fun. and so challenging lah!
shaky!!
campfire prep and lunch!
and thn erhem.
*threefour + trainers' secret*
lol. weiliang the COOKIE.
at first i bang a rock in the _____ suay liao.
then he still pull my leg high high to see the bruise.
and both fall!!! ==''
then tio scratched by rocks. .__. *kickkkss!!*
bathed!
and camp prep.
panicked like MAD.
mp3 no batt. hp no batt. = no idea how to practice. .__.
dinner-ed and cheers and more camp prep.
then CAMPFIRE.
swopped places to sit with blur. [:
and then we performed first.
ahhh! quite ok lah. had fun. though i had jelly legs and screwed up partially when dancing.
nervousness is so screwed.
but managed to do the babyfreeze in the end! ^__^
cheer cheer lalas!
then campfire progressed.
more cheers and songs.
huiming and the one girl and one boy story ==''
so sweet! and oh my _____ (fill in name).
3/5 and the super CUTE dance.
end of campfire.
debrief and supper (milo + super sweet!)
and said good night to that blur.
and chatted with jielin for a while before the trainers made noise.
and we dozed off while waiting for them to walk away =x

09.03.2008 TODAY
morning wake up. *SLLEEEPPPYYYY*
packed stuff and breakfast!
MAKAN CHEERRR!
eat eat.
rain. then chiong to shut the tent =x
and played the hey___ you're a cool cool cat with a little bit of this and a whole lot of that, and come on now and join the fun! pomchipomchichipomchipomchichi(up,down,left,right)!
!random!
and then went to gather at a room!
get camp tee [:
more cheers.
up the bus.
TK and ADI talks =]
emoing. sad siah.
then tai tee-ed at the back with

Du shen- shao quan
Du wang- jazz
Du huang- Ching pang
Du hou- Me
Du Wangzi- jia xun
Du sheng- junfeng
Du cookie- Weiliang

lol! i not a mama-san la. LOL!!
taitee rocks [:
and one despo junfeng clap =xxx
"wo de ling mei~~"
lols. crappppers [: randomers [: hehs [:
and back in singapore!
waited for blur.
then went long john silver.
JUNK FOOD. mann. that was FANTASTIC after camp food laaaaa!!!!
then to bball with zac, huiming, paul, kelvin,weiliang.
went zac hse then court.
huiming left early to go msia. =(
home at 7 plus.
dinner!
and bath and ONLINE! =/
blur AHHH! tell me online never online. kaoooos!!!

random. lets do MAKAN CHEER DURING RECESS!
AHHHHHHHH~~~~
sup *clap x4*
sup *clap x4*
sup sup sup sup
xi shua shua xi shua shua xi shua shua
MAKAN!
lols. i update my template now.
so ciaos!

glad you were there for me.
those three days i'll never forget.
the little things we said that brightened each others day.
look into my eyes, and they say, the same thing that your eyes say to me.
as only thing butcher says that makes sense "the power of love"
smiles.
and 72 hours more till you're back my love.
and and you are my sunshine too [:
& i didnt find love,
love found us through basketball.
take care yuppp!
iloveyou[:

omgomgomg its SEC THREE ADVENTURE CAMP IN ELEVEN HOURS.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS.
still rather worried lah. =x
camp in somewhere =x
simply worried. fullstop.
been praying rather hard for this trip lah.
and i'm moooody and tired like crappp.
seriously have to sleep early today.
to 3/4 people [:
rmbrmb dont be lateeee. lateness charged at 10 mins-50cents
and rmb to bring theee itemss [:
lekukus. dance roughly in bits lah.
suree throw face into dustbin and never pick it up agn.
spent $5.90 on track pants.
so big big lurh!!
and moneyy flies =xx
rmb after camp SEOUL GARDEN siahhs ^__^
packing almost done liao le. =x
left with toothpaste and lense case and solution nia. [:
and damnnn me losing mind.
not only cause of the lack of slp.
also never see blurblur for >48 hours le =x
lols. kukus. miss you so much lurhs.
and shit siah.
now my left arm and both legs got problems liao leh.
shitshitshit. right before camp and i'm aching all over.
time to embrace that packet of painkillers once more T.T
iihatethismannn!!
and mdm oh call me ans qn when i half asleep liaos la.
lucky never throw face agn lurh!
not like that day,
reading the passage like a keesiao de blur sotong.
and say "omgomg" when i got many wrong words =x
paiseh lurhh!!!
andandand. please jiayous for the campfire item THREEFOUR!!
we can do it TOO!! =x
and yupp gonna watch d gray man ep 73 nowws.
lloves and misses and see you people and youu in 11 hours!
ciaos!

iaremissingandlovingyoutobits. <3

feeling really tired.
so much things to do,
and so little time left.
camp in 2 days,
and i haven't packed my bag at all.
camp in 2 days,
no one really gives a damn about the campfire item.
why are we putting in so much for.
theres no commitment from the class.
crappish bullshit
later have to try to refine the remix,
if WMM flops.
i can jump down and say good bye to my sleep.
cause have to remix everything agn.
praying hard.
hopefully can just do the choreographing can le. =x
ah tian ah.
endless sleepless nights.
&&blur is sick =xx
take care horrr =xxx must rest well.
& sorry i hit your head. =x didnt know you sick =((
haiz. also hit-ted ah don on the head.
=xx sorry.
bballed and danced. =/
ohmann. i'm gonna lei kua if this goes on.
and at 9.16pm,
PEARLY DIED.
damned.
WMM died on me =x
i cant play the file.
night train "HELLO"
just hope that something works out la.
i'm gonna collapse soon if this goes on =x
&&thanks aaron korkor for helping me with the remix,
&&ken onichann for encouragement and the angel pic [:
nah. thought certain things wont affect me,
but yes they are affecting me,
and it's in my face.
and i think i'm feeling slightly like mok now.
iwanttochangechurch. =x
maybe just for the time being.
i dont know.
guess i wont but yeah.
just a thought i guess.
and yes yes! my baby freeze has advanced a bit,
got enough strength to support to open leg freeze le.
and ah tong's and kelvin's high seven rocks big time.
i pray hard that some miracle will happen mann.
let the campfire item work out. puhhhleasee.
i'mfainting;;
thestarsarebeauutifull;;;
flywithme;;;;
ciaos.

ohGOD.
what have i done wrong to deserve this crap shit in my life.
homework comes in ABUNDANCES.
files comes in FILE-FULLS.
and stress comes in TRUCKLOADS.
and bastards comes in ONE idontknowwhatthehellshit.
and CD boards comes AT THE WRONG TIME.
everything is WRONG,
except you.

as for the dance,
i have to figure out the fcking sexy moves,
which are so damn not my thing.
stuff like the lollapaloosa dance i can handle,
but this..?
omg. its not really my type of dancing.
but WHATEVER.
and Mrs Tee has oh so kindly asked me to help with the CD board,
when i'm full loaded up.
i say "i got a lot homework, no time"
she say "now still in school dancing for what."
WDH? i have no freaking idea mann.
life sucks.

thanks kenken onichan for the uberr cute torty & my bio skill 3 prac ^^
thanks loadss!
and blurblur♥ pei worr wait for bus just now.
and thanks to JIELIN & mokmok for the chats just now.
hope you feel better after letting it out ba.
&&DADDY for the W910i. wooots x33

ijustwannarunawayfromthisharshreality.
hideinthecornerandcrymyheartout.
mylove,imissyouso.
ifonlyyouwerehererightnow.=x

"fuck off".
does that actually hurt..?
i dont know..?
from you..?
maybe.
but yeah who give a fucking damn siah.
sticks and stones make break my bones, but words will never hurt me..?
i dont freaking believe that =xx
lols. it may hurt for quite a while.
but i'm used to it.
what more i have my love♥
nothing really matters more to me than him liaos le [:
idc what you think liao le la.
lols.
now finding songs and stuff for class performance. :xxx
busy lurhhs.
havent touched my homework yet =xx
a maths and bio are crucial but idc le la.
tonight thn do le xD
well ciaos for now thn [:

ilove&missyouloads. <3
neverlettingyougo.