this picture pretty much sums up my post.
clear enough right -.-
been doing PI for hours and it sucks totally.
more pia-ing tmr, like crazy.
(to think i had the time to draw that pic- actually only took 2mins :X)
(yes, i use paint, noob. it awesome. LOL)
so much work, so many deadlines.
i'm kept on my toes.
it's 1.21am. someone, please keep me awake during econs lecture tmr.
i'm. so. dead.
back to pee aii.
BYEBYE.
walking down the narrow aisle between the scores of tables littering the landscape,
with my head turned away,
I knew you were there, and I didn't dare to turn my head.
I saw you reaching out your hand, my eyes flinched.
Thoughts raced through my head, oh what should I do?
Your hand landed on my shoulder, sending a jolt through my body.
I wanted to reach out and grab it, hold on and never let go.
Yet, I chose to walk on. I couldn't face you. I couldn't face her.
That moment, all I felt was a pang of a regret mishmashed with jealousy.
When the next few text messages came,
all I felt was that I was wrong since the beginning.
We were not meant to be. Why was I so naive?
Your aura was just like his. So bitter and harsh.
At the moment, it was over, and your actions affirmed that you felt the same.
I stood under the shower,
the scalding water trickling down my body.
The only sign that showed I was alive, was the heat and the pain.
I was standing there, yet I was hovering above, thinking, "that poor pearly down there, why isn't she avoiding the heat?"
A long while later, the water started to cool, and my skin was an angry red.
Heat was radiating from the raw patch, and it felt so numb.
"it's over, isn't it? No more pain. Everything's going to be alright".
Hovering in my dream bubble, a sharp sting hit me.
With tear filled eyes, all i could see was a blur of colours.
I saw the neon green handle of a knife, and a cruel sharp blade staring at me.
It gleamed under the light, sending streaks of silver that pierced through the fog.
Crimson red rivulets trickled out of the wound, the taste of iron stood out, and the blood laced my lips.
Looking into the mirror, the face i saw wasn't me, it was a vampire, without a trace of humanity, hollowed eyes, protruding cheekbones and all.
Staring at that image, i ripped the mirror into shreds, as if it were paper.
Masks are all that i had, and they are all that i have now.
i just felt like writing out my thoughts in this manner somehow.
morbid? It's indeed delectable.
False hopes? Fickle mindedness?
Live in your own world, don't trample on my fantasy with your dirt-crusted boots.
(:ʎןɹɐǝdǝʌoןı
not you.
Loaded up to the neck with work today,
so i guess... worshipping God is also spending time with Him right...?
You laid aside Your Majesty.
Lord, no one compares to You.
You gave up everything for me.
How can I continue wasting my days in this manner, focusing on things that are unimportant.
Letting a meagre thing push me down like that.
I'm staying strong in You, Father. I'm going to work hard, to bring the lost back to You.
If there's a June EE, i'm going. Picking it up from where i let off last time.
I pray Lord, grant me the strength and courage, grant me the wisdom.
I really want to bring him to you, Father.
I may not have the skills or anything, please, help me.
Amen.
okay.. time to do newsrooms and study for APGP tmr.
no more vulgar.
Janeh.
♥nןı. that it hurts.
i don't care anymore.
you aren't worth a penny of my thoughts.
burning up the note, tossing out the thoughts.
moving on to...
PI. NEWSROOM. POTATO OSMOSIS. APGP.
kns. must pia work alr.
anw. spent time with ethan and ezra hunting for balloons.
love 'em. ultima retardo.LOL.
& LUKWEY GET WELL SOON! :D sit with us during service, not on VIP seat in the toilet :D
ciaos.
大笨龙,
ilu, thanks for keeping me safe forever ♥
it's a promise, don't break it.
you'll never desert me. never. not like those heartless shits.
:D
i ♥ GOD :))))))
& GOD ♥ me :DDDDDD
You promised &
you lied.don't bother saying any more. i don't give a shit.
i'll never trust you again.
NUMB. i look so pale.
that aside,
The past week has been horrendous.
2 days MC, but i only took 1 & 1/2 day off.
went back to school for biology test, which i guess i freaking failed.
and i still cannot find my atomic structure notes ._.
have a math test on tuesday when i know nuts about APGP.
PI due on thursday.
I'm so freaking tired.
&i still want to play pool.
&forget everything about today.
had CG at ______. not stating cause it's an IG.
seeking for a NIV bible hardcover/softcover, the regular kind sold at church.
dunno whether got sell a not D: need one asap. rawr.
may get another for self use, mine has been doodled and drawn on since pri sch :X
somehow, today's cg knocked me back into place, somehow or rather, i have to return to the path of the righteous.
step 1: cut down on vulgar.
LOL. had discussion about the easter thing.
Games IC ._. feel damn sadistic rofl. but i not that mean :X
well, blahblahblah.
some random pictures :X
ELHY has two heads in her shadow :X (actually one is gloomy ;X)
look like lover's tiff between ade and moku ._.
or... aunty.. AHEM. (no offence :X)
It's one one stretch of road and there are FOUR YELLOW DUSTBINS. SPOT THEM!
LOL. no mood to post alr.
medicine's making me drowsy.
OINKOINK!
hello D:
my life is fantastic, school life is great, i'm happy all the time, i love my life.
the above line is nothing but bullshit.
somehow going to JC has made me more vulgar, i don't know why.
i'm so freaking annoyed by everything that's going on.
human are selfish creatures, but God made them with a conscience right?
but to save themselves from bad grades and working with some moron,
pushing comrades down into a pit of molten lava in order to pull yourself up.
i'm amused that it does not egg on your conscience.
well, life's like that, ain't it. At least i have some people to walk me through it?
:) AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :)
have a good life. (kidding.)
ELHY, sorry that i couldn't go out with you today.
things have been really awful these 2 days =/
i wish things could have been like during the holidays, kind of carefree uh.
wanna spend more time with you.
ILY ELHY :D
Jeanjean,
thanks for being there for me when i was crying. MUACKS laogong. ILY :D
Nicholas DANGDANG,
thanks for helping me find teacher and consoling me during econs. AWESOME :D
Someone,
thanks. don't feel helpless okay :)
BaahBaah & others,
thanks for being there for me, and helping me.
whoever,
thanks for making my life miserable. fk you.
crap it's like turning into some like thank you blog post :S
except for the last one :D
plusplusplus I'm SICK SICK SICK.
:(((((
*coughcough*
made muffin muffin muffin.
okay why so threesome ROFLMAOS.
HOMEWORK TIME!
janehhh~
