i just read ____'s blog.
well i shall just label that person as RUBBER DUCK.
MR.RUBBERDUCK. has been indulging in self mutilation to chase away the blues.
and it hurts me somehow.
after all.... nvm.
i can't do much. He's avoiding me, apparently, so i'll just leave it at that.
just knw that i'll always be there, if you need someone to talk to.
sad-ed :( so LISTEN UP DUCKY. (IF YOU EVER SEE THIS)
STOP CUTTING. IT WON'T HELP YOU IF YOU GET INFECTION AND DIE OF TETANUS.
DAMN. YOUR DAD NEEDS YOU, YOUR DAD LOVES YOU. YOUR FAMILY LOVES YOU.
YOUR FRIENDS CARE ABOUT YOU. STAY STRONG, AND DO YOUR BEST. GOD IS THERE FOR YOU, YOU ONCE SAID THAT YOU WANTED TO BE A CHRISTIAN RIGHT? YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO TO CHURCH JUST TO BE A CHRISTIAN, TRUST IN GOD, YOUR PAPA IN HEAVEN, HAVE FAITH IN HIM, FOR HE WILL TAKE THROUGH ALL YOUR TROUBLES. GOT ANYTHING JUST SAY, DON'T KEEP YOUR TROUBLES BOTTLED UP. YOUR MUM IN HEAVEN ALSO WOULDN'T WANT TO SEE YOU IN THIS STATE. RUBBER, WAKE UP. PLEASE, STOP CUTTING... :(

damn it, i'm tearing :(

maybe i'm too harsh or anything, but that's what i'm thinking right now at this time.
i used to cut too, when i was really sad and emo.
my friends were really really worried about me,
and there was one special person who made me stop completely.
now looking back, i regretted inflicting those wounds on myself,
though my tan has covered the wounds, they were once there. and they will always be.
i regret making my friends worry.
i know they care.
and rubber, we , as your friends, care too.
so please. please stop hurting yourself.

i'm starting to hate the tears that are rolling down my cheeks

well. yes. i'm that girl.
the girl who has a wonderful papa in heaven but am doubtful still.
the girl who will never have the love of the boy she loves.
the girl who wants to find that special boy in her life who would walk beside her hand in hand through everything and not walk away when the road seem rocky.
the girl who wants to smile a true smile.
the girl who wants the people around her to be happy.

well it seems that i'm suffering from emo overload.
yeah well.
no one really knows me.
maybe i don't either.
if i don't like you, i don't.
if i do, i do.
if you hate someone, don't expect me to feel the same.
i am myself. don't make me feel what i don't want to.
i'm that girl who is weak in facing emotional issues.
but i can love strongly, as well as hate strongly.
if you don't know me,
don't ever judge me.

i don't really know why i'm saying all this shit,
and i don't really care.
don't like reading this?
press alt-f4 and off you go.

yeah well.
i'm feeling emo currently.
ciaos.

i want to see the sunrise, and smile at the break of a brand new day,
the beginning for miracles to happen
and see the sunset as well, enjoying the beauty of the end of the day (: