痛痛痛痛痛痛痛痛。
心。。非常的痛。
每但你的脸浮现在我脑海里，
每但你的声音在我耳朵里响。
每但我见到你的背影。
就一直痛。。。不知为何还爱你，这个负心汉。。。

i'm in desperate need of white chocolate.
my emotions are getting out of hand.
fk. chocolates are no longer a want but a need.
every single moment l face flashes through my mind i flinch,
when i see l, heart hurts like fk.
forcing myself to smile is nothing better. so i switch to "sotsot" mode,
hoping that... yeah.. i can fake it through. :3
tired of all the pretense. =3
&self mutilation past me returned.

well. today's school was totally slack.
4 free periods. moved over to sit with dragon! :))
during math got nicenice lecture from miss ng.
fk. i fking have to pass the retest dammits '_'
time to start working fking fking hards.
biology was copy EOY answers.
AND YES AH I GOT A2 FOR CHEMMMM!!! (74. oh FK. missed A1 '_')
whatever. shandong meeting aft school.
more work..

current to-do list:
1. Study CHINESE. (important)
2. Study A MATH. (important)
3. Do Shandong presentation draft (21/10 due)
4. Buy a new pknife and chocolates! (asap)
5. Wash Apple? (black black dd!)
6. Get more PSP games! (secondary)
7. Read finish 'the undomestic goddess' (due soon!)
8. Go out with dadafang to ddr at JP. (hehehehehhe!)
9. Get over that fking SHIT prob. (uh-huh...?)
10. Bio Project '_' (GWAHHH!!)
11. Copy finish Eoy bio for dragon :l (quite lazy nehh!)
12. WATCH MORE HITMAN REBORN! (MUSTMUSTMUST!!)

totally drained.
and kuroi, i didn't post up that picture.
i don't want you-know-who to see it. no worries. i'm not going to add on to your burden.

and found a meme on June's blog while blog hopping so koupedd cause i'm bored.

ARE YOU:

Perfect: No.
Tall: Perhaps. I'm tall and others are TALLER.
In your pajamas: No.
Left handed: No. Righty.

LAST

Friend you saw:
Andy.

Talked to on the phone:
Aoi.

Person to text you: Brandon.

FAVORITE:

Number: 14.
Color: Black,White,Brown.
Food: MANY (:
Place: Beach.

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was e 1st ting u did dis morning when u got up ?
- Text Brandon.

Q: Do you have anything bothering you
- Yes. Apparently, a lot. (_l_)

Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters?
- WALL-E on 08.09.08.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
- Home.

Q. Do you smile a lot?
- Depends.I'm not a smiling freak.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
- Forget it. It even more ridiculous seeing me wish over a birthday cake and seeing my wishes dashed every single year and more DISAPPOINTMENTS.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
- Quite. But antisocial to people i don't like.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
- On my bed.

Q: Why did you sleep there?
- It's MY BED for goodness sake.

Q: When was the last time you cried?
- Today.

Q: What was your last thought before gOing tO bed?
- I'm sick of this life.

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
- 3. LIFE SUCKS. everythings going wrong.

Q: What do you hear right now?
- Rain!

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
- Yea. Hurts a lot.

Q: What's your favorite month?
- December.

EMOTIONS:

Are you missing someone right now ?
- Perhaps.

Are you single ?
- yes.

Are you tired ?
- Totally.

Are your parents still married ?
- Apparently YES.

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Does your password have to do with a boy?
- Why th fk does it have to?

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
- That's for me to know, and for you to find out.

Are you a girly girl?
- Not really.

Small or big purses?
- None. -.-

Do you stay friends with your ex's?
- Depends.

Did you dress up on Halloween?
- No.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
- Huh? define: Last name.

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
- yeah. cause i'm not the one who puts it on for me during dance.

Have you ever cooked food for a guy?
- Yes. POISON COOKING :3 LOLs. jk.

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
- no idea.

Have you ever broken a guy's heart?
- perhaps.

American Eagle or Hollister?
- I don't care.

Flats or Heels?
- SNEAKERS or FLIPFLOPS are better ^^v

Skirts or jeans?
- Jeans.

Socks or leggings?
- Socks.

Heels or sneakers?
- Depends on occasion bah.

Straight or curly hair?
- Depends.

Hoops or dangling earrings?
- STICKS =/ either will do fine.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yea. -.-

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
- Either is okay.

Do you have a best friend?
- uhhhuh. :D

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
- No. i like myself the way i am.

Do you like your life?
- not really.

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
- during CAMP? :X

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
- Yeah. BBQ at david tai's condo on NJRC final day last year :3

Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
- Yes.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
- yeah.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
- yeah. if not why the fk am i hurting nw?

Do you ever wish you were famous?
- No.

IN A BOY:
Cowboy or gangsta?
- Neither.

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
- Normal homosapien(human being) pls.

Well educated or Dropout?
- Well educated (DUH)

Contacts or Glasses?
- Either is fine.

Good cook or take you out a lot?
- BOTH :3 + understand me.

Funny or Serious?
- Funny.

Romantic or Daredevil?
- Both :3

Cute or Hot?
- Cute :333 and maybe hot =X lols

Long or short hair?
- Short Medium Long also can. :X

Smoker or nonsmoker?
- NON SMOKER. (I'M ANTI SMOKER!)

done. time to shower and rest.
CIAOS.