all i know is that, FALLING HURTS.
so please, catch me when i fall ♥

currently: in a emotional whirl.

2009 typically sucks.

and today sucks too.
cause.. THERE WAS A SPOT-CHECK TODAY.
that wasn't the worse that could happen.

1. After spot check, Rekha called a few of us out and started scolding, threatening to send us to the principal's office. Then she (like finally?!) saw that my hair WAS ALREADY PINNED UP (since like xyz minutes ago), and said i could go. And in was like #$%^&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN scary luh! STUPID REKHA!

2.I'm freaking out of Oh Ah Sian's class. Not that i really care about being in the top class, but... i'm merely a REJECT from OhAhSian's class. After 3 years, at the critical point before O levels, there is a re-banding. the first thought that comes up is "WTF". At first i thought i could do better this year if i worked harder under OAS. But now, i've totally given up. Shen Lifeng? forget it. i decided to throw HCL aside and focus on other subjects.

it's not that i don't bother to adapt to her teaching.
but too much is happening these 3 months.
i can't take it already.
ade-mama, i need to talk to you.

what's the point of working so hard?
i tried my best already ; but. I'M STILL A REJECT.
if this rebanding is because of that bitch who keep complain she want change class, she's so gonna get it.

guess i'm changing for the worse this year..
i don't even know myself anymore.

i've been reading a someone's blog.
i don't know if he still reads mine, but i doubt so..
guess he doesn't care anymore.
and it's my fault. i think it's time i apologised.
Aoi, gomemasai.
could hold back my tears no more when i read through the posts.
i don't know what to do anymore.
he seems like a total different person now.
but if he's happier this way.. then let it be.
nothing i do can mend this broken friendship.
maybe things are better off this way, if he's happy, jiu hao le.

♥}broken promises.
♥}lost hopes.
♥}more loss?

- is that all to life?

&are those 3 words 'iloveyou' that insignificant?
there's one thing i know about love.
when its still ongoing, its all sweet and fluffy, yet when its over, we're all cold strangers.
nothing is perfect ; love is equally flawed.

wondering why i'm so emo? :O
cause elmo is on vacation.

still training hard for SC. Getting injured everywhere. and phobia is coming back.
just going to work harder.
senior year ; going to make it the best.
but a good thing is.. my form's coming back and solidifying.

i don't feel like doing any work today.
i want to rest.
just so.. tired.

yes ; i have an eating disorder.
SO WHAT?

ciaos.

baby, i love you. ♥